U brighten up my life..

recentli..

2007-05-15T22:19:00.000-07:00

long tym nv blog again.. im a business woman..owas bz..hahas.jk. currentli haircourse stil ongoin.now module 2 ler.. mi n memi 1 yr 1mth on e 13th. i gave her e present she wanted.. a package hahas.. oni she noes..she bot for mi a bag n keychain pouch n lots mor..im a big spender..hees. nowadays we kept on goin ktv pub,pubs,bars so on..drink n drink..tats our life..my slpin timing change ler.. now is more to 3plus slp,12plus wake up..unless mus go sch den wake up earli.. i quit my trainer job ler.. canot stand it ler.. rily damn tired n borinn.evridae kip teachin e same old tins..buei tahan..brk contract ler.. currentli no job.. duno wad to do..memi support mi fer e tym bein..lols..duno whether to find job 1st or go learn car theory 1st wors.. cus my mum bot car ler ma.. den if can i bd over den go tek practical den next yr can drive her car ler lor..hop so la..i oso wan learn jap language..sumtyms i tink of go bek study.. hais..duno..i owas change my mind de..anw..i love to go drink.. especialli wen drunk..e feel is damn nice.. den go hm slp til so suang..den memi sen mi cum hm..pei mi slp awhile den go home.. she mayb movin to wdl ler.. mor pathetic..duno wad to sae.tat tym jus did digital perm.. cut my hair ler.. i didnt it wil be sho short..c ler wana cry sia..but i tired of my perm ler.. now fil lyk rebondin again... den dye nice de colour..but my hair condition nort so gd.. so if spoil,i cry.. tis fri mayb go chiong with david,joe,,memi..n duno ler..david wil be showin off his dance steps wors..mayb can pick up sum steps frm dere..hahas..now i fil lyk go northpoint eat e qiu lian e noodle..my fav.. i miss e tym wen im schin.. den afta sch got ppl brin mi go dere eat.. den we share share.. at 1st i dun lyk eat tt kinda tin de.. but in e end loves.. i now 54kg.. stil tryin to slim dwn..my ideal weight ish 45-48..duno can mek it nort.. lol..anw.. i have posted sum pics in my frenster..u all can go c.. not totalli updated but ish recentli de norhs.. now lazy post pics..sori ahs.. dotdots..hahas..

ytd go eski bar.. so shiok leh..haha

2007-04-03T21:29:00.000-07:00

left my cardigan in e jacket wen i left.. too drunk to realise til on e cab tt tym.

hlp binko style hair..

inside eski bar..

sentosa nyte trip..

in e mrt..goin sentosa

freezing cold..shiverin..

ytd memi got d&d @ zouk underground. den mi afta haircourse mit her.. actuali wan go e xchange room de.. but now change le. strictli for above 18. asshole. den we wok whole stetch find another bar to go in.. den saw eski bar.. so excited..lol.. so fun..den we go in.. so cold lyk shit.. i 1st tym try to drink fast for 1 bottle..cus we haf 1 bucket ma.. den afta 2 bottle drunk le.. head spinning. haha.memi oso.. memi n i oso go vomit..*hehe*den afta tt drunk** go find tin mummum..den we order kangkong n spicy n sour soup.. e soup lyk shit ar.. phui.. mor lyk vineger soup.. lol.den duno bout wad i kip laughin non-stop.she slap mi leh.. asshole 1.. i stil cant stop laughin.. mus b go crazy ler.. den in e end take cab sen mi home ler den she take cab home. den i actuali slpy. but stil mus try to slp.. kip on tinkin rubbish.. pathetic..todae b4 haircourse i ask my fren hlp mi set hair.. 2bucks nia haha.. so nice.. mayb nex week wil perm hair.. aniwae its foc de..u al go c e foto lor..nex tym den post agn..goin wk lerr.. sians..todae go late.. cus too tired.memi cum my hse pei mi slp..

no tym ryte notes..nex tym kie

2007-03-15T08:21:00.000-07:00

updated pics

2007-01-16T07:28:00.001-08:00

memi's de dog..august.. cute ehs..

long hair witchie..ME..
vintage style.
edited pic.. lyk sketch.. nice ryte..
im zi lian de.. nort bian tai !! ribbon_sealed lips
diff look lerhs..
cute mar?lol
wearin skirt as a top.. hahas.

some pics nia..

2007-01-03T09:09:00.000-08:00

simple luk de mie.. : )
look lyk wad nehs?
go fetch my meimei frm work..
i love memi's kishes..
dollie _mime. ' .
mime!! tats mi !! hees..

my beSt aCcompanY

2006-12-28T10:59:00.000-08:00

hey.. im not rytin in daes sequences.im jus rytin wad hapen On daes i neva blog. tt daes memi bot sweet fer mie.so cute ehs.

my birthdae present she gb mi flower..pink rOses..wOwz..

we went to e zoo to celebrate my birthdae wit e animals . lols

dere's monkey. goats. etc

Hapie belated CHRISTMAS !!

2006-12-28T09:46:00.000-08:00

memi & mime @ food republic

*LaStin cOuples*
Liyue.Eme.MimE.SerEne
Fwens 4eva

hey..iM bek.to update evri1 whu reads my posts,mi n bibi-now refered to as *memi* 8mths plus ler. cumin 13th wil b e 9th mths.. rounds of applause bahs..hees! hapie belated CHRISTMAS to all of eu out dere.. suld have enjoyed ya christmas ehs..aniwae on e christmas eve,i got work tt dae..do clsn.aniwae got wear nice nice go..so afta wk go change den go out ler ma.. actuali wan go cine dere plae spray .but in e end choose wrong place,go vivo instead.damn wu liao lor.. severals souls ard nia..regreted goin dere,if not have enjoyed our countdown at orchard area wors. aniwae mi went dere wit memi n a few of my wkin frens.serene.liyue.eme.. we tried to entertain each another..lols.. 5 ppl plae spray.. gone case lerhs.. den oso got go e food republic mummum..food was" all ryte" nia..but e place gave mi such nice feels.. we took fotos.. enjoy it wors..

Saddest period of my life

2006-10-17T08:31:00.000-07:00

bout 1 mth nvr ryte blog agn ler.. alots of ups n downs..hz.. mi broke up with mon ler. on the 11th bout 1 plus.. i stil duno e actual reason.. yet oso cant accept e facts.. dun understand y std 2yrs++ ler stil can brk.. i admit tt i suldnt haf neglected his feelins in e 1st place.. i regreted i nvr trit him well..nvr let him fil e care n concern.. but e fact ish..no matter wad.. i stil love him alot wad.. he suld clearli noe tt..i tot he didnt haf doubts bout tt.. anw sori mon..if u hapen to c my blog.. lotsa hapie n sad memories in us.. tt i tried so hard to 4gt ..yet cant do so.. almost evritin ard mi mek mi recall bek e tins tt hapen .. the tins we did.. the tym we share.. so much tt i culdnt tek it ler.. i cried evri now n den.. hz.. hart ache lyk hell.. parents n relative was so hapie tt we finalli broke up.. even bot a hp to console mi,s well s a present fer brkin.. i rather dun have e hp.. i jus want him by my side..though sumtyms e tins he do reli irritate mi..tat i owas tried to teach him to change.. but he is stil e same.. ,but comparing e good n bads... he haf mor of e gd.. he owas hav patience wit mi.. care for mi wen im sick,buy mi anitin i lyk..spent most of his tym wit mi.. i didnt noe noe hw to treasure til i lost him.. sobs.. i owas tot ders 4eva love.. but tis incident change my tots entirely.. s for bgr.. i wun eva blive in tt animore..actuali intend to even wait for him to end his ns den find a stable job..afta few yrs get married.. we owas tok bout tt.. but now... hz.. duno wad to sae.. dere'll owas be tt cut on my hart tt last..n nvr be mend.. hw i wish i culd jus 4gt him n evritin bout tt relation... til todae ,i stil tink tt im e 2nd gal in tis world whu trueli love him n understand him.. who wuld eva do e same? i culd do evritin fer him.. he promise to love mi 4eva..but he nvr took it seriousli... anw..tis period of tym..i tink i wun be attached to ani guys le bahs.. my nex bf wuld be sum1 whu cn do much much beta den him.. if not..i wun even tink of getting married..rather b single... currentli ,,stil wit my baobei bibi.. stil owas dere fer mi wen im down... notice e change in her attitude since e dae i broke up wit mon. she wun mek mi sad animore... anw.. i love her alot too.. oredi std fer 6 mths ++ ler.. hope wil b ever lasting.. cant afford to lose her too.. msg to eu.." i'll owas love eu no matter wad.. tts owas.. thnks fer evritin u've did fer mi..i reli appreciate tt.. i love eu baobei.. mwarks" about my mek up course..portfolio,thesis n theory ova ler.. now left with e pratical on e 28th of oct.. hope i pass it all.. wun waste mon n mommys money.. after tt goin find a new job related to make up.. den mayb taking up hair dressin course too.. i wna learn mor tins.. still young.. learn ler earn more money.. in case cant find my true love..u c.. and birthdae cumin soon.. tis yr its not gona be e same.. but hope it wil be o'ryte though.. christmas ne? dun dare imagine ler.. hz..

update..

2006-09-18T08:52:00.000-07:00

so super long nvr ryte blog ler.. cus evrityym ryte gd tins den bad tins wil hapen..scared ler.. dots.. tish 2 mths were quite al ryte.. evritin went up n down.. btw mi n bibi 5mths ler on e 13th.. few daes ago.. hapie wors.. hope cn last super long.. my another wish came thru ehs..tt tym sum1 sae dun blive in 4eva luv.. but now blive ler.. lol.. wee!tt dae sho sad leh.. cus of.. aiya.. dun wan ryte in details.. scary..heng afta tt nth hapen.. mi n mon oso gt prob ler..but heng now nth oso ler.. i hate tish kinda probs.. oso wu liao n irritatin.. mek mi sho fan..bout my mek up course.. alreadi end ler.. now oni left with all e exams.. cumin ler..october..super scary.. not prepare ed all.. how?hz.. my thesis.. aiyos.. tink ler more scared.. n i haven found my moedl yet..fer both portfolio n pratical.. cham.. afta gettin muh diploma goin continue workin ed pasta fer 1 or 2mths to save money 1st.. afta tt den go find e make up -related job.. den there my career starts.. tink goin to learn hairdressin 2.. ite sheme or so.. duno yet..but ite de quite long term. around 2yrs?c 1st lor..i haf got lots mor tins to learns..fer example..manicure,business management,finance,facial,airbrush or mayb cookin?lol... anw..bibi..if eu were to c tis.. i tel eu wad ish love? my defination of love is a feelin tt haf a combination of happiness,sadness,jealousy,anger.. diff fils ed diff tyms.. but most of all ish sweet de..jus lyk wad i feel towards eu..hahas..

my wish came thru ehs..hahas

2006-07-31T09:05:00.000-07:00

30/7. ytd mon cum out.. ytd i go raffles hotel hlp dancers frm smu make up ma..my 1st experience..hahas.. den make up skill was not tt bad.. did two person..1 was quite ok lookin..so easier for mi to hlp her make up oso.. lyk creative make up lyk tt hahas.. wonderful.. den afta tt mit monmon ed 9plus ed raffles city eat bk lor.. aft tt go pasta wait fer bibi cease work.. den we took bus home..she n ed alite amk.. we kip on play in da bus..so funi..den todae mon cum my hse ed 12 plus..i jus woke up not long ago..ytd nite cht wt bibi ..slpt ed 4 plus..so tired.. den we both slowli fell aslp tghr..lol..dots.. den mon pei mie lor.. den 2 plus he watch tv den i wen bek to slp agn.. actuali wan wek up ed 4.. den 4.30.. den he play com til nv reli go wek mi up lor.. 5 den he wek mi up agn.. ki siao.. late fer work le..so damn pc.. i recentli kip late fer work..evritym suei suei gt sumtin crop up last min.. pengz..den he sen mi to khatib ctrl den go home le.. i go work myself.cus he nid go bek camp.. den late abit lor.. actuali bibi workin til 6 de.. but serene last min cant cum oso bibi replace her ..work til 11.. tat means work 13hrs.. if mi i pengz ler.. but i was stil quite hapie.. i tot she goin bek..den wan sians half ler..den aft work sen her to amk ctrl lor.. ed outside ``. den weilong col mi.. i tot was my mum..cus private no. den i ans.. i tok to him super awhile oni..den bibi face change ler.. didnt noe she wil be sensitive to cols too..hahas.. den she nv tok ler..i tek mrt tt tym den msg her ask wad hapen.. she sae mayb jealous.. cus she oredi said she dun lyk.. den ed nite i msg her ma.. sae no matter whu col or wad shit she oso no nid scared.. cus in my hart.. she hold an beri impt role,n a beri special place tt one one can eva replace,not even mon.i love her so so much. den her repli was damn nice lor..love it man.. lols.. den recentli nv quarrel or wadeva le.. duno can last lyk tt fer hw long.. hais.. evritym las a short period of tym oni..so scary... tok bout todae.31/07.. i woke up ed bout 10.. den do my tins cus workin ed 12..den i actuali earli rch ctrl de lo .. den evritym tins wil delay my tym de..idiot.. e stupit 2 person tok to e ctrl stn man damn long lor..so mani ppl quein up ler..he stil duno hw to zi dong abit is it.. den got 1 malay an scold him..obiquek.. feel lyk slapin e man lor..i diao him lor.. damn pc..den late 11 mins.. den todae work was so borin..duno y..i 6 plus den punch out eat.. bibi punch out soon afta tt.. i sen her home..den wait fer her dwnstairs awhile..cus she cumin dwn agn go ntuc buy tin.. den she stomach pain..hahas/ den in lift got mwarks 1 tym oni.. so long nv ler.. since her mum ki siao..den she cant sen mi home animore..hais..dun sae ler..lyk tt lor..byebyex..

i lose weight ehs..hee

2006-07-21T10:36:00.000-07:00

hahas. lyk so long nv cum ryte blog ler..cus sians..tired..lazy..sumor.. not tt hapi fer few daes.. so dun ryte oso cn.. ytd i ask bibi whether we suld brk up.. cus fil tt she dun reli love mie ler.. im confused.. i duno wads goin on.. i duno wads shes tinkin..dots.. wen i ask tt ques,i was so afraid i wil regret.. but heng todae nth hapen.. we act lyk nth hapen.. todae i wek up ed 8.45. last tym wen nid go sch,i wil earli 2 hrs wek up de.. now sians ler.. 9 mus go out,15mins in advance wek up..hais.. nv nv mek up wvritin den go mit ah mor ler.. todae ish e last hair course.so hapie..hair course ish damn sians lor..though cn learn.. but its bored..den bout 4 we left ler.. we went to katong.. rch bout 5.. sing a few song nia den bibi col to sae i got work..though cant continue sing..but i was stil quite hapie.. i haf been worrying since mornin tt todae cant wait fer her cease work.. den duno hw.. but heng lor gt work..but wil be late..ah mor so pek cek.. but in e end i pay e ful amt of e ktv.. den eat e stupit duck rice.. gain 0.5 kg.. now 57.5.. anw..i hv lost 6.5 kg since 3mths ago.. sho hapie.. my target ish to slim til 54 by christmas.den 52 by new yr.. 48 by next yr mi n mon 3 yr anniversary lor.. but duno cn ma.. hope cn bahs..lol.. n afta slim down gonna go do bit of exercise..to tone up my body.. hee.. hope my drms wil cum true.. den mi col zumi tek my uniform al tis cum dwn bugis gb mi..so i no nid to ma fan go hm tek..waste mor tym lo.. ed least i sae wil rch in 1 hr tym.. n its reli bout tt tym..lol.. den 7 lyk tt punch in.. todae quite bz de.. new outlet manager came .. den closing was soso tiring.. i so long nv do sweepin n moppin al alone ler.. e stupit zhao yan duno hw to zi dong abit..n do tins damn slow..wan do til 2mr openin isit..siaox.. so tired..backbone wan brk ler.. den afta tt tek train wt bibi afta left jo. . den her mum bluf her sae wan go bustop fetch her.. den i cant sen her bek lor.. but got alite ed amk ``. 1st.. heng nth wrong todae.. den i ryte blog de..lol.. hope ltr nyte oso nth wrong.. if not i rather faint 1st..haas.. 2mr mon cumin bek..so hapie.. den mayb go watch mv or wad lor..but sians ..2mr gt work..6-11.. den bibi nv work sumor..wah..faint ler.. boring!!.. anw .. mayb wil ryte blog agn 2mr bahs.. duno lei..c hw bahs..byebye!!

hapi 3mths anniversary to mi n bibi !

2006-07-13T09:16:00.000-07:00

12.07.todae ish mi n bibi de 3mths anniversary.. lol.though not long but stil quite hapi wors.. cus tym kip on got prob.. den i tot wil beri fast brk..who noes..now okie ler..hahas. den todae mornin 8.15 wake up.. den do tins ler mit kit go sch lor.. todae nv reli learn new tins..cus todaes lesson ytd cover le.. den todae stil do e wave tech lor.. make up fer 2 classmate tt i nv mek up fer dem b4 de.. was quite all ryte..small faults oni..so ish consider not bad le..lol. den i left sch ed bout 2.. cus todae no new lessons n bibi todae off ma.. so wan pei her.. she todae wan brin august go groomin ma.. den mit her ed paya lebar ctrl lor. ed 2.30.. jo rch le.. actuali randy gt go de.. but last min sae gt work ma.. den left mi bibi n jo.. den brin august go e shop ler den go katong de ktv lor.. was quite nice de..evritin was okie.. den 7 plus ed cum.. den sians half..he sae he 1 week cant cum out de.. den so fast run out ler.. anw he paid fer e ktv.. no nid us waste money.. lol. den afta tt jo n ed..jo go hm 1st.den ed go shop wit ben.. den mi n bibi tek cab go fetch august.. den afta tt tek cab go bek amk.. den ed kopitiam mum mum.. she eat duck rice.. den i eat e stupit hokkien mee.. so er xin..aniwae hou lai i tek bus go home ler lor..

wave technique.

2006-07-12T11:22:00.000-07:00

11/07. todae woke up ed 8 plus abit..so tired..ytd eat e cough n flu medicine..both cus drowsiness de.. den tired lyk shit.. wan ryte blog oso haf difficulties..den mit kit ed 10.30.. den go sch lor..todae learn wave technique fer eye shadow.. quite nice de..but hard to blend lor.. denbrk tym go rocky master eat curry potato puff ar.. not tt nice.. den afta tt go upp..no other partner.. den mi n ah mor tok to julia lor..den i personal make up course agn..lol.. ahi han msg ask mi replace her..den i sae ok.. cus actuali stil fan bout lata cant sen her hm or wadeva..cus she todae work til 11 ma.. but heng i can work..but wil be late la.. den afta sch go eat mee goreng le den go home tek uniform all tis lor.. rch pasta ed bout 7+.. den evritin was s usual lor.. afta work sen her go home..she sen mi to bus stop..once rch bus stop .e stupit bus came.. of cus dun tek la.. den we sit dwn ``. den another bus came ltr on.. den i wanrun de.. but e bus nv c mi..dots..blind de.. den we sit agn lor.. jus now is afta 12 le.. so its our 3mths anniversary..lol.. if can stay long long beta wors.. hahas.. den in e end mus tek cab go home..$9.60.. okok la.. den go home tek e stupit medicine agn.. now ryte blog oso bit tired le..soon faalin aslp..lol.but mus wait to col her lor..haas..

go bedok mit jo.

2006-07-12T11:09:00.000-07:00

10/07.todae woke up ed 8 or 9.. woke up so earli cus goin bibi hse.. den wen i go out le she told mi her sis nv go out le.. den i tot cant go.. so missed 1 bus..afta tt she sae cn cum.. den i rch her hse ard 11.. den c her slp.. her rm so hot.. wil melt de.. so cant slp lo.. den bout 11 plus she wake up.. den she mitin jovern ed bedok ma..so go wit her.. 12 plus went out le.. den we took bus dere..stil wait fer jovern awhile.. den afta tt eat lor.. kit col n kbkb.. so noisey ..dots.. den ask mi faster go mit her.. but cfm cant de ma.. den 2.15 den left e kopitiam.. den took train..bibi alite ed bugis.. go work..mus rch ed 3.. den i go find kit lo..mit her ed yishun ctrll.cus wan go buy sponge do e make up sch de assessment.. so wu liao..den cant find cheap n ryte colour de..den we go chong pang find..oso dun hav.. in e end she bot a brown contact lense.. afta tt go sunplaza de watson n aries lo.. but ed watson buy 1 big pack de sponge...but we oso duno hw to mix e colour..so bo bian.. nv do..aniwae oso no tym le.. mus rush down work.. todae actuali no nid work de.. but todae ish those newcumer do closing.. mi dun wan let bibi work til too jialat..so ask manuel let mi work lor..late fer 6 mins.. dots.. i nv late b4.. except fer tt tym go cine tek cup.. den late 15mins.. but tt wan cant blame.. den closing i did little oni..cus sweepin n moppin let adib n hilman do.. anw..afta work bibi sen mi home lor.. she buy cough sweet gb mi..lol..so nice..

i sick ler..

2006-07-10T10:43:00.000-07:00

09/07... woke up ed 1+ to 2.. cus tired..n sick..beri sick.. actuali wan find replacement de..but cant find.. den receive a msg duno frm whu sayin 10 n 17 of tis mth haf accessories cousre 10-5..den i c ler den go bek slp..din realise it was todae til kit col n tel mi go.. she go 1st..cus she got work..den wok frm cine til sch lor.. i do my tins ler den go out ler.. havin super headache.. hais. den e stupit class n stupit teacher mek fun of mi..act lyk beri fierce to mek mi scared.. dots..hate dem.. afta e course go mac eat.. den kit go find her peng.. den i ownself wok go cine tek large cup fer bugis de outlet.. so heavy..wan faint ler.. den rch pasta ed bout 6.10. actuali bibi sae wan replace mi work de..col mi go home slp..but i sae she pei mi work cn ler.. todae e closing she did most of e tins..evritin i do she snatch away..cus i sick..she dun wan let mi do.. den i do cheese den she do..i wan mop.,den she mop.. so nice of her..lol.. den afta work i sen her home..cus she tired ler.. den she sen mi go bustop lor.. bus so fast cum..sians.den bus cum ler den hug n kish.. normal de lo..

bibi mum wan c mie..dots.

2006-07-10T10:24:00.000-07:00

08/07.woke up ed bout 11 plus..cus earli in da mornin edwin col mi..sae bibi mum wan to mi mi..clarify tins.. wad i stare her daughter wad shit.. den ask mi act s his ex-workin partner..tat work ed toy'r'us de.. name col janet..haha.. cus tt tym i scold her mum..so cant let her noe im eileen.. todae workin ed 6..to 11.. den mi wake up eat bo liao de fish..n duck neck..no meat de..sians.. den mit edwin ed amk ctrl ed 1plus.. den tok bout tins awhile den go bibi blk dwnstairs.. afta tt her mum wan us go up to her hse.. den bibi wait outside lor.. den she ask mi y stare her daughter..den i sae nv lor..siao de.. den afta tt go in her hse..got bible teacher oso..shen jing bing.. den tok nonsense ler.. den let us go.. den we took mrt to paya lebar den took mrt lor.. edwin sen bibi go work..den i go cine find ah mor.. afta tt go work lor.. closing stil okok.. den afta tt i sen bibi go home..den s usual she sen mi go bus stop.. den leg so tired so sit dwn lor.. nv ~~.cus i gt cough n flu.. stupit prob.. dun wan pass gb her.. anw..go home ler den afta she do her tins den call her..livin rm de fone.. aftatt my mum cum out den ask mi chup..wen i msg her..she slp ler..dots..lan zhu lai de..

i'll be dere fer eu no matter wad de.promised!

2006-07-08T10:18:00.000-07:00

06/07. 2 daes nv ryte blog..now mus recol tins le haas. cus evridae so tired.. lol. dots. ltr den i ryte y.. anw todae actuali gt test de..make up de theory test.. e marks wil be brot fwd to e fianl de.. but i dun feel lyk goin.. partli becus kit was sick e dae b4.. n todae was stil not okie yet.. havin fever.. den i dun wan go alone.. another reason was cus bibi sae actuali oso wan col mi dun go de.. todae she off ma.. den tot can go her hse pei her..den suei suei her sis ed home.. den her mum go out awhile den goin hm ler..so cant go her hse.. den sch of mek up col mi.. i nv pick up..cus duno wad to tel dem ma..den rachael col kit told her julia was angri..sae we nv cum on purpose de.. den kit col n sae she was sick.. den julia sae mi ish cus kit nv cum den i oso dun cum de..dots..den sae we nv trit it seriousli..ask us immediateli go ova tek exam.. but oni gb us 1/2 hr.. by ryte ish 1 hr de.. den i do tins le den go ova wt kit lor.. rch dere bout 1 plus bahs..den e test was damn diff lor.. mayb cus not enuf study..kit did beta den mi bahs..she study bit.. den todae actuali got flowers course de ma.. den lesson oredi started..den was lyk..dey oredi started duin e flowers le.. so peter angel ask us to cum bek in e evenin fer e nyte class lor.. .den oso bo bian..den we go wok wok 1st lor.. go taka c her tins..den 4gt go whr le.. den mon cum out le ma.. den ask him mit ed orchard lor.. he mornin go tek ite cert ma..tats y nv sen mi go sch.. den mit him ed ctrl stn.. den we go mac sit sit..armwrest wit him.. win 1 tym lol..so hapi.. las tym he no nid use strength de..now nid le.. lol..dot dot dot..den afta tt go go bek sch ed 6 lor.. den learn de flower..quite nice to plae de.. hahas..den i took 3 rose cum mek..den afta tt join 3 tghr.den was so nice lor.. den i wan gb bibi.. actuali wan gb her surprise..put ed her hse outside de..but her mum n sis ed home..ltr dey ki siao agn..so in e end i got tel her i goin tek flower gb her..den mon pei mi go ma.. i go isetan buy ribbon n wrapper..but i duno hw to wrap.. in e end gave up.. tie ribbon oni..den wen rch her hse outside...her head was jus ed e window..hahas. she sae cn feel im cumin..dots.. i tot it was e footstep sound..den i pass her e flower thru e window...afta tt stay awhile outside.. den she msg mi ask mi gt giger ma.. den i gave her 4 lor. 2lite,2 mentol.throw into her room.lol. den i stil stayin outside..ed e stairs dere.. but cn smell her smell.. den wok near her hse.. so strong smell. i love tt smell lor..hahas. i siao de.. ppl sae stink .. i tin nice... mayb cus its her smell bahs..hahas.den stand outside awhile le heard her mum shoutin..ki siao ler.. kip on sayin her.. wad edwin so gd..den u lyk tt wad shit.. den her sis oso shout her..dots.. i hear le wan faint... living in a home lyk tt ish super miserable.. dots..den hear finish ler i go home le.. i somehw noe tt she cfm beri sad.. feel tt she mite cry.. n hou lai reli was lyk tt.. she beri sad.. den gt cry.. n edwin kept on col her..msg her.. mek her so fan.. she oredi so pek cek ler..he stil lyk tt.. both add tghr mek her dae e worse... den wen rch home.. i hlp her c blog..den go bathe. tek off clothes le den she col ler..heard her sound diff.. noe she cry ler.. hais.. den try to console her lor.. den 1st tym c her sad til ltk tt.. den.. hais.. ask her not to do silly tins le.. she stil did.. told mi she ate 10panadols.. scared mi to death lor.. made mi super worried..actuali fil lyk take taxi go her hse bein her go c docter de.. but she dun wan.den i oso duno hw..though wun die..but reli wil spoil intestine or wad shit de lor.. hais. den i msg ed.. ask him dun kip on fan her le.. if not he cfm regret.. den he col mi.. den i tok to him.. ltr tok to her..ltr tok to him.. haven even wear clothes.. den bz tokin on da fone le.. den ltr on ed nv kip on collin ler..jus msg.. den she feel bit beta..but head n stomach pain..so scary.. den tok til 1 lyk tt den i go bathe 10mins den col her le.. cus dun wan her go aniw tink den do sillier tins.. den kept on chttin wit her til almost 5 den chup.. den c her so sad.. n she 2mr tin cant work..cus no mood.. wan tek mc.. den cant possibly leave her alone ed home ma.. so nxt mornin wen to find her..

<0707> 7am wake up le.. slp 3hrs nia..tats y i sae i so tired.. den 7.56leave hse.. rch her hse ed bout 8.40 lk tt.. den pei her lie dwn rest.. slp awhile..she kip on peep ed mi slp..duno y..lol. den gt ~~. oso.. hapi..hahas. den wake up ler hlp her dye hair.. not obvious de colour.. todae gt hair course ma..mus rch ed 10 de... but i of cus wun go la.. i tin i brk tym den go bek fer e 2nd part of da lesson.. den dye hair til 12 plus.. den got hlp her style hair oso.. actuali ed ask her go his hse..IDIOT DE HIM!!.. den i ask her dun go.. go find fren go out.. den she ask mich out lor..go bishan find her.. n go c doc.. tek mc.. mich jus dismiss ma..den i go sch lor..kit lololo agn..sae i so late rch..heng gt ppl pei her eat..if not i die 1st..den i so hungri..den kit got potato left ova..cant finish ..ask mi hlp her eat..ed rocky master dere.. den i ate 3 pieces lor.. tat was my lunch hahas.. den go bek sch.. 1st part learn 1 tin oni..heng.. 2nd part was learn to style short hair.. i oso no mood go reli c wad she teachin. den teach 1 tin den dismiss ler ma..den ask tel bibi.den she cum wait fer mi lor.. den wen she rch orchard.. i tel julia i go toilet..den go dwn find her.. she stil wokin..den we ``. lor.. aft tt go up agn..she wait ed mac.. afta awhile i faster as kit go off ler..cus dun wan let her wait so long. den we go mac eat lor.. eat nuggets.nv eat much too.. she oso nv eat much.. anw.. afta tt kit go find her peng peng.. den mi n bibi go cine watch movie.. ed 5.15 de. e re-cycle..she so scared lor.. duno y..haas. in e threatre..wen weem to haf scary part.. she wil use hand cover eyes..but i go put down her hand agn..dots.. funi.. anw e show wasnt tt scary..sum part 10-20% scary nia.. but e story okok la.. den afta tt go outside ``. afta tt she ask jovern n mich cum.. she lyk more ppl.. cus she sae e more e merrier..anw..ok lo.. den mit jo ed orchard ctrl.. den we go far east fer nth.. jo buy tin eat.. den we buy chocalate smoothie..cus she sae look nice..lol. but taste not tt nice anw.. boo. den we go 7-11 outside sit.. but no``.ing area. sians. den awhile ltr edwin cum le.. he black face..siao.. aiya dun sae le..so er xin.. den mich oso cum ler.. den all tghr lor.. den we wok go e duno gabage plaza..lol.duno col wad la..actuali ed wan play pool.but no space ler.. den go merdian foodcourt outside sit.. ed meridian outside saw bibi de sister.. scare her lyk hell.. cus her sis wil bao to de ma..n she reli did... uncivilisedmoronicidiot oni.. den mek bibi so fan agn.. cus she todae tek mc.. but lie to her mum sae got work ma.. scare her mum go pasta find her oso.. den she wan go bek ler..mi ask mon cum fetch mi..den 1/2 ltr lyk tt den rch dhoby ghaut.. den we took mrt tghr lor.. den bibi was tokin to jovern ma.. den i tin,,was ok.. cus dey long tym nv c each otha ler.. but e most stupit in was.. rchin amk le she stil duno hw to zi dong tok to mi 1st.. den door open le..den cum tok to mi..sae bye..den i angri ma.. den wen rch khatib chao agn...dots lr..todae so hapi de..who noes gt stupit tin hapen agn.. den so pek cek til rch home.. mon c mi so pek cek..nv care him oso pek cek ler.. den at least bibi 1st noe hw to use ed e hp col mi wen her hp low batt..if not i cfm more pek cek.. den rch home actuali wan msg rubish agn..bout 8 msg.. but tried so hard.. to calm dwn ..to not sen her those... wa..so diff.. yet i did it.. cus dun wan spoil her dae ma..she oredi so pek cek cus stupit sis go complaint ler.. i dun wan add stress ma.. den afta tt.. i pei mon awhile lo.. i lyk so bad..nv care him.. he cum out once a week i oso dun care.. can rather pei bibi den pei him.. fil so bad..den i ask him hlp mi massage.. nv hlp him..cus too tire.. den he .'. lo.. but i too tired.. nv entertain him.. den afta tt i go rm lie..rest while waitin fer her col.. but in e end fell aslp without knowin..mon oso 1st tym c mi slp wen his ard..den he left on his own afta i slp.. todae story to be continue tmr..ryte so long...wan faint ler..

basic manicure dae

2006-07-05T09:16:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 7.30 cus alarm col mi..den was stil so tired..so slept til 9..wen my maid wake mi up..actuali 9 ish e tym wen i haf to step out of my hse de lor.. cus mittin kit.. den heng she oso bout tt tym wake up..so cant blame mi..lol..dots.. ytd nyte more jialat.. hais.. she 4plus den repli my msg..sae i forcing her lyk tt.. den she sae i super too sensitive.. den she tink tt bein wit mi ish stress... den.. i was lyk.. i cant believe wad i saw lor.. she actuali can sae til lyk tt.. if u lyk sum1,u wil consider holdin hand s a kind of force de meh..dots.. den i so sad... den cry ler.. u tink i wan to tok rubbish de meh.. its jus tt i dun understd y dun hold hand in public lor.. n i hate to anihw guess.. cus wad i tink ish owas veri negative de..yet wen i ask her.. she nv try to explain..den suan ler lor.. since she wan lyk tt.. i oso bo bian.. mus kip tat kinda feel to myself.. she oso dun care anw.. den next mornin msg quite normal lor.. todae go sch learn basic manicure.. so bo liao.. afta tt go far east..cus tot wan buy ting fer bing de.. mayb 2mr goin her chalet fer awhile mar.. den kit kip on shoppin fer herself..den oso bo xim go find present fer bing..den in e end nv buy.. i try to find ed parco wen go find bibi n wait fer her cease work.. rch pasta ed bout 3 plus to 4.. anw..cant find anitin fer her..duno wad she lyk oso.. den nv buy.. fer e two hrs.. cht wit randy.. den afta tt cht wit dishwasher uncle.. den buff my nails all tis lor.. afta her work.. sen her go home..rch bugis ler she wan go cut hair.. den ed her blk oppo cut lor.. ask e auntie dun cut til so short ler..she stil so stupit cut til so short.cus her hair lil ma.. anw..tink she wun go bek to tt salon agn..haas.den afta tt sen her go up.. gt hug .. normal kish lor.. nv reli hold hand..hais.. stil e same prob.. duno wen den wil change.. im waitin.. hais.. den was lyk.. she almost hold my hand.. den touch fer 1 sec den put off.. den do other tins.. dots.. s fer e lc,she oso s usual.. kish bit den she wil blow or move away ler.. den i oso dun wan go ask agn.. ask lyk nv ask..cus hais.. she jus dun bother to tel mi y..if let mi guess.. i wil guess tt she dun lyk ~~. wit mi animore.. cus tink ish not bout e tym.. cus nan dao half min oso cant meh..no diff lor.. ahis..den i mus console myself..tel myself..gt hug n normal kish ler.. sumor ish she zi dong sae y nv gb her kish de.. beta den nth lor.. if nv lyk tt console myself.. cfm no mood agn ler.. ltr ed nyte tok rubbish agn.. i dun wan ler.. den she ed bus stop told mi actuali tis mornin almost wan msg mi sae she not a gd std..ask mi find a beta wan de.. siao lor.. she sot ar.. wan sae rubbish meh..dots.. den she stil sae she wan find one dae try to brk... c whether she wil sad mar..bu to mi..she wun lor.. even if yes..oso bit oni.. e most no mood 1 dae den ova ler.. cus i can stil rmbr e words she sae.. wun eva 4gt.. she sae.. " i love u..but mayb not tt much bahs".. hais.. wen wil tis change to " i love u veri much " ne?

1st tym let mi go home myself.. dots..

2006-07-04T10:08:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 1.. force myself slp late late..so that wake up ler left a few hrs more den cn go work ler..no nid bored ed home..den wake up eat le den use msn lor.. cht wit stephanie.. tel her bout ytd i sen bibi de 10msges..bout wad she recentli veri lil hold my hand wadeva.. den she gb mi opinion lor.. den cht til 3plus lyk tt den go do my tins den go out work ler.. rch dere bout 5.. tot she wil work til 11 de..but in e end.. its 6.. pek cek..SIANS ALL lor.. den my face change ler.. frm hapi mood to sians mood.. den b4 she leave she stil cn gb mi a fake sad face.. dots leh her.. PIG!! den todae oso not enuf staffs.. outside closing left mi n diana oni.. do til siao.. sweep til hand wan brk. todae in msg.. she total sae 5 mish eu.. quite hapi.. but e pig fol aslp agn ed nyte wen she told mi she wil try her veri best to stay awake..LIAR.. tis ish e 3rd dae ed nyte nv tok ler..so guo fen.. humph.. den she haven even explain to mi bout e msg.. wan to avoid agn..actuali she dun wan tok bou it oso cn de lor..provided she wil lyk last tym.. aniwhr oso wil hold my hand.. plus evritym mus haf gd ending lor.. den i dun kip askin oso cn de.. dots.... pek cek.. so guo fen..i wun 4gt de.....DOTSSS...

heng she nv go mit her fren..if not i cfm ki siao le..

2006-07-03T08:59:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 10+..cus duno whu kip goin in n out of room..disturb mi..irritating lo.. anwi slept agn til goin 12.. den wake up eat popiah n porrigde..afta tt.. du nth til 3 plus.. den go make up all tis..afta tt go find ah mor..actuali wan go find bibi de..den sen her hm...but she tel mi she mayb mittin her ite fren.. den i was so pek cek.. as in ish common sense tt she suld noe i cfm wil find waes go find her de ma.. den even she wan mit fren oso mus tel mi in advance lo.. den i oso do hao tins le..cant possibly dun go out ma.. den i go cine find ah mor lor.. was stil so pek cek.. n she repli damn slow..den cine dere got small pirate ship.. $1 nia.. actuali wan go plae but hou lai bibi sae she not mittin her fren ler.. at least my mood got beta..but kit so pek cek..lol.den i go pasta find bibi.. go up find xin ying awhile tok tok.. den afta tt sen her home.. she ate 2 ice cream.. dots.. den wok all e wae to her hse deir.. ed voideck sit awhile den sen her up.. in lifft got hug abit.kis normal.. but was so long since we last ~~. lor.. diaos.. sumor its not e matter of tym lo.. i duno wads e prob man.. she dun lyk ler ma? or?..dots leh. n todae she show mi e msges aL n jovern sen de.. she kept it fer so long lor.. she cant 4gt i cant blame her.. but tis msges she is purposeli kip de lor... pek cek.. stil sae wil try to 4gt.. i tin ish try to rmbr bahs..humph..!!but i dun wan sae le..sae le more pek cek..dot dot dotsss...

normal de stupit dae..

2006-07-02T11:29:00.000-07:00

woke up ed almost 12 todae..quite ok..cus i lock e room so no 1 can disturb mi..haa.lol.den i dreamt of i gave birth to a babyboi 2 daes ago which was on 28 or 29.. den was so cute lor.. iden i rmbr e stupit drm.. i put my baby into a small styrofoam box n cover it wen i go out..let it slp inside..i wonder hw he breathe sia..dots.. den i kept on askin mani ppl in my drm whether its a drm..cus i dun rmbr mi getting pregnant fer 9 mths...lol.den i didnt wan to wake up frm e drm..cus its so nice..e baby lor..lol. mine leh..den wake up ler go np eat wit binko..i trit.. cus my mum sae i gt money den i pay lor..dots.. she eat fish n chip..mi eat chicken rice..eat half oredi full lyk shit..den go watson wok round.. saw fauzie.. den cht wit him awhile..he sae nxt yr den go poly..tis ytr work..siao de..sot wan..gila..!! den fta tt go buy shampoo..but buy wrong..go buy conditioner..but aniwae..tts wad i nid most.. fer my stupit dead hair..den afta wok go hm..binko kip on naggin..sae wan tek bus.. but in e end i oso drag her wok..lol..rch home le..bored...nth to do..den my dad on e documentary which he recorded let mi c.. all e stupit animal ..insects mating de.. watch til i wan fol aslp.. den finish ler i go rm lie..so tired..fil lyk slpin ..but no tym..so rest fer bout 20 mins..den wake up do tins.. nv reli put proper make up..cus tired..n waste tym.. den rch pasta ed bout 5.40+..den punch in lor..todae oso stupit dae lai de..i hate evritin so messy..mek mi headache lor..not enuf staff oso i tink..outside mi n lide oni..den dinner ask bibi hlp- mi buy mac..she buy mos burger. den food cum bek le i oso haven eat.. til cold ler..dots...she oso haven eat.. den i do tins til 5566 ler i go tek n sit ed lide table eat..den she wok past tt tym sae mi..wad win le lo..nv wait fer her.. den wok past agn kip on humph humph humph.. den i i gona continue eatin sia.. den eat few mouth le put bek inside..go do tins agn..in e end tek home eat lor..fries oso throw.. rch home heat n eat..at least not bad..dinner food became supper..lol..den todae she kip on sae mi.. mad ler.. ltr sae broom..ltr sae wadeva la..dots.. den afta work she sen mi home.. so late ler..den lyk nv reli hold hand..sians.. her zi dong ish ci dun wan..den wen hold my hand..i sae panasonic oni..she let go..diaos.. siaox!! stupit... den go up le..hug awhile.. kish bit. no ~` agn..anw its reli late ler.cant blame her..oni tin cn blame ish she dun hold my hand..humph.. go home wait fer her col.. cus she low batt..den she sen 2 msg ni.. den haven col.. den fell aslp ler.. PIG... sians... den i ryte finish go slp ler lor..dot dot dotz..nites dear..ya hor,,,n e stupit tues..she work 10-6..i work 6-11.. idiot shcedule..hate it..den 2mr stil no work..duno cn find waes go out ma..if not i faint..

worst dae ed pasta..

2006-07-02T11:11:00.000-07:00

o1/07.01todae woke up ed 11.25.. den bibi col mi..ask mi whether i cn go work earlier ed 12 or 1.. actuali i workin 6-11 de..but her mum dun let her go work earli.. den shee cant find replacement.. so mus hlp her.. i did my tins fast..den faster go out le.. rch pasta ed 1.. fast hor? lol.. den work 1 to 11..so tired..she came bout 3..wit edwin..den todae e crowd lyk siao lor..damn lots of ppl.. damn messy.. tins mek mi damn pek cek.. evritin was not proper..omg.. worst dae eva..den e new staff anihw sweep..more pek cek..den e stupit cheese kana soap.. cuz ah pon pour .. idiot..mek mi mus redo e whole tin.. waste tym..den afta work she sen mi home.edwin waited ed khatib ctrl.. den we ran abit..haha..den so fast breathless le.. useless de mie.. den ed 5th floor gt hug awhile..got bite her oso..lol.. den she bite mi oso..pain fer 10secs nia..dots.. den normal kish..so long nv ~~. le.. cus evritym so late go home..sians.. 2mr workin ed 6 lor..can slp more..

im stil trying..

2006-06-30T10:29:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 8.30.. nv mek up.. n most jia lat ish..hair oso haven do..dots.. dn lyk ah ma lyk tt.. put hairband..tie hair den go out ler.. sumor stil quite late.. 9.50 stil ed yck..dots..den todae actuali no nid brin head de.. so shen jing.. waste my energy.. luk so stupit..den todae learn hw to use e tongs n curler.. quite nice de.. wait til my pay cum den cn buy le..dots.. den 4plus end class.. den go pei kit go bugis ..cus she wan do pedicure. n buy manicure de tins fer nxt week lesson..den mek her pedi fer 1 hr.. den afta tt go pasta.. accidenteli kick ah mor toes.. e nail polish came out..dots..she so pek cek..den go mek agn..but mus wait til 8.30.. den we go pasta eat 1st..she eat spicy chicken..mi nt hungry..so nv eat..oni dinner ish sausage..lol.. den jus now wen jus rch bugis..saw bibi n behl..dey goin buy present fer yana.. whose workin e las dae le..den afta tt.. wen rytin farewell card,bibi dey all wok so fast.. den cant find dem.. den she got msg mi ask mi whr u.. den i nv hear.. she gt col..nv hear oso..stupit idiotic fone lor..pek cek.. den she sae mi..dots.. hais.. den afta tt wen she eat tt tym oso nv col mi go pei her sit.. den i so pek cek..but i noe if i chao wt her ova tis.. she cfm got alot of "facts" to sae de.. so 4gt bout it..anw..she didnt noe i mind..i was tryin my best not to msg her nonsense.. n i did it.. she actuali finish work ed 8 de..but her mum came pasta eat..so she cant leave earli.. den mi n kit go bugis strt buy tins 1st den mek her pedi.. afta tt go pasta wait fer bibi cease work.. den afta tt we go amk k-pool plae.. kit kept on winning..dots...anw..e las game tt tym edwin came..cus bibi ask her cum pay money haas. ya.. n i 4gt tok bout e mrt tin.. i told her todae actuali got 2 tins tt can start a quarrel de.. den she ask wad.. i actuali dun wan sae de.. but she insist.. i told her mornin nv sae gd mornin n wen eat nv cum pei mi tok.. den she gb reason tt tym.. i kip on tellin kit she owas got lotsa reason de..n i can orediguess wad reason she gona gb.. den she pek cek le.. ish extreme pek cek.. den ignore mi.. i oso duno wad to sae.. wad cn i sae lor wen she's angri..den afta awhile she ask mi fer ciger..den i gb her tt tym.. she gave mi tt att face sayin ltr col edwin gb mi bek..dots.. wa..so angri lor.. if she treat mi s std..wun lyk tt sae de lor.. gb ciger oso mus make til so clear isit.. y not nxt tym she gb mi tins or wadeva den i sae i col mon gb her bek e money beta..den i no mood ler lor..nv reli go care her..den rchin e central kopitiam dere tt tym she past mi e ciger.. ed least mood beta by 2%.. nv smoke cus e wan i gv her is e last stick..2mr mus buy agn liao..dots.. den afta pool tuk cab to my busstop..she kept askin mi wad hapen..y so sad.. but i sae nth.. cus even e smallest tin cn mek her pek cek.. so i rather dun sae anitin hao le..den soon afta alite frm cab bus cum ler lor... bout lyk tt oni lor..

free labour became paid labour..hahas. fine fine dae.

2006-06-29T10:36:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 8.30 lyk tt oso.. den same lor.mit kit go sch.. todae learn hw to mek up fer man n elderli.. den afta lunch plae stupit game agn.. mi n elina partner each other..her skill wasnt gd.. omg.. though mine wasnt tt nice..but ish presentable lor.. cn go out shoppin de.. den afta tt 4plus left sch.. kit wan go sim lim mit peng.. den i wan go pasta work..free labour..cus dun wan so earli go mh.. den wan pei bibi ma..if not fer no reason stay til so late meh..ryte.. den peng so slow..haven cum.. den i pei kit go bugis wok wok 1st lor.. den afta tt she go sim lim i go pasta .. haventym yet..so wait fer bibi free den go dwn ``. den start work ed 6 plus..todae learn hw to do support..i so slow..til now den start learn wen e staffs same batch s mi de oredi learn cashier ler..dots.. den todae do support..blur blur n slow slow.. cus stil duno tis n tat.. do awhile oni den yana ask mi go out do food runner ler.. cus outside two new staff..cant cope..den awhile ltr bibi told mi work properli..she ask yana count hrs fer mi..so count as got pay de... i was tinkin..even if duin free labour i oso wun tou lan lor.. i wil work lyk normal de.. anw todae reli not enuf staffs.. if i nv work..dey more bz.. den closing sure damn slow..anw..i did most of it.. cus dey either nv do.. or anihw do.. den i mus do one more tym..dots..10.30 bout all finish ler lor.. den oni left deir kitchen.. den afta work sen bibi go home.. but s usual..she got sen mi go bus stop.. den we plae plae.. den at least she gt zi dong hug hug al tis.. beta den tt dae.. todae was much beta..no stupit prob..im so comfortable wt my dae.. hahas.. evridae lyk tt beta sia.. den 2mr got hair course.. sians.. so bored lor.. den mayb afta sch go wait fer bibi cease work ed 8..hopefully no much ppl..so she can leave earlier den we go shopping. c hw lor..

mit june.. lol

2006-06-29T10:16:00.000-07:00

28/06.todae woke up ed 8.30.. cus too tired.. cus bout 3 den slp.. den was lyk..slp a few hrs oni.. fer a few daes le.. gona be panda liao.. den go mit kit go sch lor.. did my tins beri fast.. cus nv mek up so on.. den todae learn theory oni..siao de.. den 1 plus dismiss le..anw..todae bibi nv work.. but oso cant go out..sians half ler.. den dismiss ler go her hse downstairs mit her.. sit awhile ``. den fta tt go buy milk tea.. den ed voideck sit awhile more den she nid go up ler..sians.. den i sen her up.. upstairs staircase was so windy..so nice.. den i sit dere awhile.. but ltr oso dun feel lyk goin home..cus so sians..den i go phonebuk find contact..cus change to mon de hp..so no much contact.. but i found june de number.. den so qiao..she live amk ma.. so near nia ..den ask her wan mit ma lor.. den ed e meantym sit dere c clouds lor..lol. den bibi ask mi go dwn 9th floor c her blow august dry.. den i stand ed corner c awhile den sit ed staircase read e pasta mania product knowledge worksht lor.. den afta tt wait fer june bathe al tis den mit her ed amk mrt stn.. den go central mac sit n ``. den she sae wan go play pool den go lor.. plae awhile oni.. den chester col mi..ask mi wan replace shi han ma.. den i agree lor.. cus go hm so bored.. but den afta tt he sae no nid ler. but oso nv mind..if not beri rush..mus go bek change clothes ma.. den afta plae hao ler go mac eat nuggets.. so nice..yum yum..lol.dots.. den afta tt go home watch tv ler..sians.. wait til nyte den cht wt her on da fone.. suei suei sumtin small hapen agn.. i nvr hear properli she sae muacks de tin n i sae she chup my fone de tin.. den she so pek cek.. den duno la..afta tt she sae las dae let mi tok nonsense.. haas.funi.. den she can explain ma.. den chup ler she stil got msg ask mi sae.. sae mus both hapi.. so unexpected..tot she wil immediateli go slp ler.. anw..den i sae nth lor.. but i tink by e tym i repli she slp ler.. so wait til tmr mornin den wait fer her msg lor..

2006-06-27T11:32:00.000-07:00

did i brk my promise?

...todae actuali ish hapi de.. til ed at nite.. i did sumtin wrong agn.. i feel tt i bkoke my promise.. i made the same old mistake agn.. all muh negative tots agn.. sen stupit msg..i owas regret wad ive done..wad ive type..not i wan de.. nv wanted to mek her sad.. wads wrong wif mi.. evritym ki siao.. wei le small tin lyk tt.. i sen her hm.. den she sen mi go bus stop tt tym ..wen bus came.. she nv reli hug mi..n no real kish..wadeva.. den i pek cek le..hais.. i so petty.. y lyk tt.. evritym my fault de.. hate myself... i wil try my veri best nt to do tt agn.. if it reli hapen agn..it wil be against my will.. 2mr wed agn..todae lyk tt.. y wed owas a so suei dae.. i hate wed.........

e 1st tym tis kinda tin hapen..

2006-06-26T10:55:00.000-07:00

The 1st tym.. todae woke up e ed 12+..but stil nt enuf to bu my jing shen fer e mani mani daes.. todae off... sians.. den todae sumtin hapen agn..al becus of my msg.. bibi work ed 1 ma.. den she almost late.. den wen msg mi.. she wrote.." i rch bugis le..msg u ltr" without saying miss eu so on.. den i was lyk.. feel odd lor.. dun lyk e feeling.. den i ask her is tt all? sh sae she goin late le ..running.. den she nth sae.. i was so pek cek lor..she no tym..cn type e msg yet cant add in mis u love u so on.. den i go msg n sae her.. i sae if it waste ur energy to type those words den suan ler.. dun wan sae den dun sae.. den i tot she wun repli.den i msg agn sae if she wan mi no mood plus sad whole dae den dun repli hao le.. anw u r owas ok wit mi being unhapi .oppo frm mi wen i owas wanted u to be hapi..hais sad.. den jus becus of tis msg..it affected her mood so much i didnt noe.. she whole dae nv eat..hais..its all muh fault..den i 6+ went out ler..go find kit.. cus too earli ler.. den go pei her tok..todae noe new fren..col mandy.. she work ed another push cart.. anw.. i wait til kit cease work den go.. so s to rch bugis ed 10+..de took mrt lo.. todae dey do closin damn slow lor..n nv do properli de..heng todae nv work..if not cfm pek cek.. . den actuali ed amk wan alite..sen her home de..den she ask mi sit..haiyo..so late ler lo..scared her mum nag agn.. den in e end she sen mi home... den i ask her pei mi smoke ler den go up tek mrt.. den in e end she nv smoke.. i ownself smoke oni.. den she sit dere facing dwn..tot she jus restin..but i feel sumtin not ryte..so look ed her body..e breathin movement.. feel tt she's cryin... n i was ryte.. i duno hw to console her..n duno wad to sae..e oni tin i culd sae was i swear n i promise i wun do tt agn... den afta ``. i ask her go tek mrt..she insist on sendin mi home..on e wae bek..we nv tok.. nv hold hand.. e 1st tym.. den she sen mi up da lift le den she go dwn le..oso da 1st tym..hais.. den go home msg her lor.. todae gt tek neoprin..so long nvr tek nice nice de le..heng todae de not bad lo... 2mr work 6-11..den she work til 8 nia..sians half ler ..dots..

vodoo doll..lol

2006-06-25T11:15:00.000-07:00

... todae woke up ed 10 plus cus daddy msg mi to thank mi fer sayin hapi bd..ask mi take care of family..so siao lo.. got meanin de lor..he nv cum home fer daes ler.. so sad.. i ask him bek..but he nv repli..he told my mum he wun be bek fer 1 or 2 mths.. i dun wish e prob to be sho complicated..mek mi so fan.. den i repli him tt tym cry..cus so sad.. den todae mon rch my hse b4 i wake up.. den we go northpoint buy contact lense..eat abit n watch scary movie 4.. was a lame,funi plus not scary movie.. i go buy e vodoo..gt meanin de so cute..bot 3.. 2 love de..1 career de.. career de fer abi cus she evridae kip tinkin of goals... haas.. den afta tt i go work le.. he goin bek camp..wil mish him de.. anw work was al ryte.closin was quite fast.. oni gt 2 small prob.. b4 end work n afta work..but gt reason de.. dots.. den afta tt..edwin alite ed amk wait fer her.. she sen mi home.. den she sae wan bao chou but in e end..sae le nv do..lol.. den i bite her agn.. funi.. todae was a okok dae..actuali culd perfect de..dots.. 2mr no work sians..hais..i dun stay ed hm whole dae..men shi ren le...

todae saw 2 monks..

2006-06-24T11:36:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 9+..tot mon wil cum..but actuali nv.. cus he go tek pay 1st.. den afta tt i mit him ed orchard ctrl..den we go lavender de army market..cus he wan buy tins.. den he bot army tins,ah pek slipper n bot 1 jacket fer mie..quite nice de..lol.cus i no clothes wear le
hahas..den afta tt go dere lo.. u noe.. fxtm..den afta tt go bugis street.. mon go buy cap i buy black tube to go wt e jacket.. den he actuali tot e cap was 19.90 de.. oredi so exp ler den in e end found out it was 39.90.. so siao.. scared mie.. but cant possibly sae dun wan ma..so paiseh.. den afta tt go work le.. edwin oso dere..den was lyk so funi.. lyk 2 monk jus cum out of shaoin shi to retrieve bek e fou dou..lol.. den afta tt mon go bek hm awhile.. den 9+ cum bek.. den dey duno go whr tghr while waitin fer us.. afta tt go hm tt tym.. dey alite ed amk.mi n mon ed khatib lo.. den while walkin hm saw a siao lang.. den we run..scared e siao lang chase us.. den we ran diff way.. lyk run marathon lyk tt..so fast..lol.dots..aiya..funi experience..

my words cuts her wrist..sad..

2006-06-23T10:57:00.000-07:00

ytd nyte wen i tok to her on da fone,i told her evritin i tot bout our relation..all da bad tins..hw sad i m wen..so on so forth..den she was sho quiet.. i tot she was tinkin bout wad i've said n tinkin of hw to explain to mi..but in e end she said her mind wasblank..hais.. todae go work tt tym saw plaster on her wrist.. den i knew sumtin bad hapened..she actuali cut her wrist agn.. not jus 1 or 2..ish a lot..hais.. i regreted tellin her all tt.. i feel tt my words haf hurt her.. was lyk..evri one tin i said made her cut once.. was so sad..hart reli ache.. but i dint express it out..hais.. i hate myself.. y since she std wt mie til nw.. lyk oredi lyk cut 3 tyms ler..hais..i dun wan her to do tt de.. but i jus cant stop her..hate myself..arh.... anw.. i woke up ed 8 todae..so tired..den mornin her mum tuk her hp..cant msg mi..i 1 plus den can receive her msg.she apologise fer nv reply ytd den tok bout relation de tins.. hais.den she todae no mood whole mornin.. til evenin.. todae hairstylin .. learn 6 kind hairstyle.. den afta tt go work.. todae work stil ok.. closong was ok too..but tym abit delayed.. she sen mi hm.. den i bite her..punish her fer duin silly tins..dots.. den gt hg.~~*bit nia.cus she no tym ler..gotta rush hm..tt tym i tol her afta work zi dong bit .. dun kip on stick to sunnie.. n she reli did.. i was quited contented.. nt bad lo.. mon cum out ler..but nv c him todae..2mr gt mit him lo..

thurs was fine!! yeah..

2006-06-22T08:29:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 7.50.. den stil so tired..slp fer bout 5 hrs nia..ytd she col bek to sae gd nyte..lol.den todae mit kit go sch agn.. learn nude luk de t-technique..feel tt owas learn same tin leh.. den practice..lyk wasting money..hais..hope nex tym reli got gd job lor..if not waste money..den todae so sians..bibi off dae..but no chance go out wit her agn..in e end she go wit mich.. dey best fren..so i no nid zealous..lol.. den todae so suei.. bout 5 den dismiss.. by e tym..dey oredi cum out of ktv ler.. den actuali tot cn mit her tok tok or wad de.. in e end.. her noisey mother wan mit her ryte afta her course..den i mit her ed cityhall den pei her tek train to toa payoh..she alite le..sians..hais..den she nvr hug n kish mie.dots.. feel guai guai de..no hug.. den i alite ed khatib go hm ler lor..den todae oso no quarrel..so gd..den she wil zi dong msg n col mi al tt.. hapie... hope 4eva lyk tt wors..den cn kai xin til siao liao..lol..2mr i gt work.. n gt hair course..so tired..omg..pengz le...den if she okok..den at least wun tt sians..

wen to zouk fer e 1st tym..yeah..

2006-06-21T11:33:00.000-07:00

... todae woke up ed 7.30..so tired.. den afta do tins ler den go mit kit.. todae learn irridecent powder n eyeshadow.. for nude look de.. den 3 plus dismiss ler.. den go ah mor hse change clothes n shoe..hlp dem mek up al those.. but she duno hw to tie hair..so in e end.. all giap straight ler..dots.. den 7 plus wen out.. took cab go zouk.. cus dey gt event.. den we cn go in fer free go watch fashion show..quite nice de.. 10pm end show ler..ah mor actuali wan stay dere dance or wad de.. but mi wan go find her le..so earli go out.. rachael dad cumin ftch her..no tym fer kit..so she pei mi go find abi ed pasta.. den she go mos burger eat ler den we home ler.. actuali wan sen her home de..but rch amk..she ask mi sit dwn..den i was lyk.. duno lo.. den in e end she sen mi home.. sho late ler.. den gt hghg n ~~* awhile.. den afta tt she go hm ler lo..todae was e 1st wed tt nth hapen.. sho hapi.. ytd nv c her..feel so odd de.. mish her sho much.. hope 2mr oso nth hapen.. tink wil go ftch her den sen hm.. lyk tt lor.. too bad cant stay ed zouk longer.. but nvm.. lol..

Zouk rocks!

all da nonsense wasnt ova yet..hais

2006-06-20T10:02:00.000-07:00

all e nonsense wasnt ova yet..hais..

todae mornin woke up ed 9+..she msg mi sae sori fer fallin aslp ed nite..ytd nite got prob agn ma..bout e al thingy.. e pts n so on.. den i jus tok to her bout it agn den she nv repli.. den as usual..i go ryte rubbish agn.. den wen she replied 4 hrs ltr,she sae she jus woke up..den she trit my a few previous msg as i nv sen de lyk tt..cus i tot she wake up le... hais. den afta tt got msg bit.. den wen she go work le..i ask her msg mi wen free.. n i cn c tt she did..so was quite hapi wt it.. todae mi bored ed hm whole dae usin irc so on.. noe a guy col weilong.. n todae kim hian oso got msg mi earli in da mornin.. den i nvr reli go repli..cus oredi bad mood ler.. den evening bored agn..den msg him.. den cht bit lor...he sae he miss mi..dots... den i nv sae anitin..scared sae wrong tin.. den so on..bored n rot fer 1 whole dae til nyte watch tv.. den wait til bibi cease work den col her..den wen wan chup tt tym..got prob agn.. she lyk bo xim sae gd nyte all tt.. mek mi so pek cek..den she cn jus sae bye den chup..heng afta tt she got col bek agn..if not i cfm pek ck til mornin de..anw hope nth hapen 2mr..if not reli evri wed n thurs wil got prob..omg..got phoebia le..hais..

not pek cek + pek cek

2006-06-19T10:28:00.000-07:00

todae mornin woke up ed 9..cus bibi todae alone ed hm..so go pei her.. rch her hse ed 11.30..she stil slpin.. zhu lai de.. den i col her ask her open e door.. heng she can feel hp vibrate.. if not she slp inside,i slp outside ler.. dots.. den go in c her slp awhile.. den she wake up.. sae wan revenge haaas.. cus ytd i dare her sumtin ma.. in e end..oso lose e dare..lol. todae her lb goin fade away ler..so gave her a new one..cus she kip on sae ytd my lb ish lousey de..dots.. den i gave her 1 normal size de.. tin cn stay..erms. 2-3 daes bahs.. den she oso gb mi.. small abit.. but quite ok la.. tin 2 daes.. den she lyk so soft...i tot wun haf colour de..dots.. den i go cine find ah mor tt tym den saw e mirror den i noe.. gto 1big 1 small lb..ed e left.. n medium size real bite ed e ryte.. den got kip on hug hug n dot dot.. dyctch.. but my neck wan brk le.. dots.. anw..is bout lyk tt lor.. den aft tt we took bus go paya lebar den took train.. she alite ed bugis.. den i ed somerset..go find ah mor.. cus iwork 6.. she work 3.. den cant possibly go up pasta so earli ma.. den go pei kit 2 hrs den go bugis ler lor.. dae ed work stil ok.. i broke a desert glass..so suei.. duno y.. den todae closin oso quite fast.. den afta work was usual..i wok alone den abi was wokin side to side wt sunnie.. den was lyk she her std lyk tt.. her std dere she stil cn lyk tt.. duno hw to zi dong abit de...mus i try to xi guan tis kinda of tin?siao lor..dots.. den i oso nth to sae..den afta tt she sen mi h..todae nth.. she wen go earlier den other daes.. cus scared her mum nag agn.. but todae real earli lor..duno y.. den nyte prob was.. saw aL tag her blog..col her pts.. omg.. so dui xim lor.. got std ler stil wan pts.. bu shi flirt meh?gt 1 gd bf n 1 gd gf stil not enuf.. wad isit tt she wan man..i dun understd..den she sae..pts oni wad.. jus lyk fre.. den i sae if pts is lyk fren,den does it mean tt i cn go find a few more pts? den e most stupit tin was..she cn repli mi sae.." u wan den go find lor..i dun mind de,i haf nth to sae wad.." omg.. if u reli love tt person,u wil lyk tt sae de meh.. i m agn doubting her love fer mi..she jus cant hao hao de std.. without lettin ani other gals cum into our relation ma? is it reli nth to her? hais..i duno la.. den was wondering wad she wil repli agn.. or wil not repli.. sians...arh..pek cek agn..

finalli abit normal..

2006-06-18T10:42:00.000-07:00

mi woke up ed 10+..den quite hungri le..bibi got msg mi..but she nvr sae sori fer fallin aslp last nite den mek mi wait,tt she ,in e past had owas done so.. den i was lyk.. feel strange lor..dun understd.. actuali wan sae her agn..but dun wan quarrel le.. den msg her ask her b bek to normal.. dun owas lyk tt.. cus veri tired lor..std til lyk tt.. den she sae ok.. den evritin became quite ok le.. den afta tt go dwnstairs eat wit my parent n sis..todae father dae..but nvr gib him present..cus no money..sad.. den todae my dad brot binko n worli go escape theme park..dey sae got a haunted hse fer replace of e panasonic.. den my mum nvr go..cus tired..but in e end oso wen out to her fwen hse..dots.. den i ownself ed hm..so sians..den i go pasta earlier lor.. bout 3 plus wen out.. rch dere bout 4.. start work ed 6 de.. so go dere sit lor.. den afta tt go dwn opp de kopitiam eat.. i eat nasi lemak.. den afta tt ``. le go up work le lor.. den e oni prob was..1stli..wen ``.tt tym ed carpark..got tym den she col sunnie cht.. but bu jain de she col mi cht wen free.. n not even a msg wen she's workin..but i kip on ccing her msgin sunnie lor..she sae is bes fre.... got gd til more gd den std de meh.. so confused.. duno she wil fall in love wit her not..if she reli do.. i wil brk up wit her de.. cus i dun lyk my std to lyk another person... diff case frm she n edwin..cus ish guy..den i duno wad to sae lor.. reli hope dere's nth between dem...dots..den sunnie gt cum.. den sunnie in e office ma..den abi ed kitchen tt tym drop ice.. tin she c sunnie til blur til lyk tt de.. hais.. den i was lyk..not in beri gd mood.. but dun wana tink of anitin to spoil my dae.. den todae closing do til quite fast de.. 10.30 finish my job.. den leave earli..go dwn ``. le den she sen mi go home.. den we toktok lor..den ed 5th flr... cht ler.. den hug awhile.. den ed corridor.. hug,~~*bit.. den she blow..i bite.. til her lip lyk eat chilli..haha..den gb her small lb.. 2 small line..3circles..haha..i got 2 circles.. den in mrt.. wan pull my finger tt tym.. accidenteli hit her dere..hahas..funi..den ed upstairs tt tym..oso play plae..hit each other..dots..den nth le lor.. if she 2mr wan mi go her hse den i earli leave home.. hope cn la..so long nv pei her longer le..anw.nites.buais.

i tryin to 4gt ytd... hais.

2006-06-17T09:17:00.000-07:00

im trying so hrd to 4gt..

todae woke up ed 10 or 11 plus.. she ytd nv tok to mi..her mum tek her fone.. meks tin worse..cus cant solve tins.. den she todae nvr repli alot of msg oso.. hais..i duno y.. feel tt she is avoiding prob.. y cant she jus explain properli ne.. was so sad frm ytd evening to todaes aftann.. mornin was tinkin whr to go.. cus was so angri..so sad..so pek cek.. duno whr to distress.. actuali wan go sentosa wit wei li de.. but todae such a humid dae..den.. i cried lor.. was too sad to kip my tears.. den in e end wen to bugis..feel tt tats e place i suld go..all i tot was cing her.. though now prob haven solve yet..i wan to c her face.. her face wil show evritin..so brot wor li go pasta eat..spent e stupit 9+ to eat e stupit bbq chicken pizza.jus to sit dere.. den she nvr tok to mi at all.. was lyk c mi lyk c ghost lyk tt.. den i oso nvr go tok to her..cus im afraid of her wrong reaction.. den afta eat le.. den duno she went whr.. so go b1,1st flr find her.. she nt dere..so e oni las place she wil go was to go buy bubbletea.. den i walk e escalator dwn to hope i cn pass by her wen she go up.. den was reli ryte lor..i saw her cumin up e escalator,but act s if nv c.. back facing her.. den she touch my bek ma.. den i noe nth real serious hapen lor..but stil sad.cus she stil haven tok to mi.. but got repli msg..sae beri confused.. sae i wil anihw tink..but if she nvr lyk tt,i wil lyk tt tink meh.. y cant she understd..lyk its al my fault to tink negativeli.. if i dun love her,i tink so much fer wad lor.. den i ask her whether she stil love mi.. n her ans was stil e same.." of cus i stil luv u" but did she show? hais.. i cant reli feel.. or mayb seldom feel.. den afta go wok bugis street fer no reson,go up agn..sit ed staircase..den go in pasta agn..tis tym go buy mango smoothie..waste money.. i wan c her.. i scared if i go home 1st..i wil anihw tink agn..especialli wen she dun repli my msg.. den sit dere wait fer kit cum lor..sit fer 1 to 2 hrs.. worli was so bored..but i stil ok.. tink e staff ed pasta mite tink i siao..kip on sittin dere..but wad to do? i oso no mood go shoppin.. den drink le smoothie..wei li kip on pestering mi go shop..den i bo bian..brin her go opp de icon wok.. oso nth dere lor..sians.. den afta tt go e toy shop..duno wad shop name..haha.. nex to e neoprin dere de.. den saw e soft toy beri cute..den bot 1 green soft tortoise keychain fer bibi lor.. hope she'll lyk it.den afta tt go up wait fer kit agn.. wen she walk past got touch mi..but nv tok.. den kit cum ler den go pei her order..den pass e keychain gib her lor.. den got joke bit.. though is lyk... erms. she cn laugh or wad..stil so hapi wen im sad.. mek mi recol e words tt she said las tym..said tt wen im sad she wil be sad oso.. i tin is nt true le..so i sen bek e msg to her.. den delete frm my hp.. i hope one dae,she could sincereli msg another one to mi..tin wun hapen ler bahs..hais.. but she reli cn act til so fantastic lor.. reli lyk evritin wasnt wrong.. i nth to sae ler.. im tryin so hard to 4gt wad hapen.. i hope it wun hapen agn.. sick n tired... i tink i cn reli lose more weight lor..evridae so sad.. she sae she wan mi evridae hapi de..but den...hais...duno.. afta kit eat ler den we took mrt go hm ler.. i pray tt 2mr wil be a beta dae.. hais..

i hate my dae.. i hate myself..

2006-06-16T09:17:00.000-07:00

i hate my dae..i hate myself

todae mornin woke up ed 8.30.. did my tins den make up bit.. foundation oni..den mit kit go sch.. todae learn hairstyling..6 styles.. got french roll,tweexe roll ,chopstick,so on n so forth.. den actuali she wan cum fetch mi de.. den in e end nv...she go bugis lor.. her las mrt fare..she actuali choose to go pasta find dem den cum find mi lor.. den ask her whr she,she cn tel mi ed home..so fake lor..hais.. den i so so pek cek lor.. den she act s if nth hapen.. i oso nth to sae.. den she sae go dere check shedule,eat n find huda share cigar..but is not acceptable reason at al lor.. hais..check shedule cn col her fren ask.. eat can cum find mi ler den go eat together.. s fer cigar..i oso cn share wit her wad.. i dun understd lor.. hais.. she stil ask mi dun tink too much.. hw cn i lor.. i feel tt she lyk mash potato.. she sae oni bes fren..but.. aiya..i duno la.. anw.. she hapi cn ler.. i sad ish my prob.. she once promise mi b4 we std..tat she wil love mi n no one esle.. be loyal to mi n wadeva.. but . ... is it reli true?.. dots.. den in e end i go bugis find her.. was so moody lor.. no mood ed al.. n she nv even care.. act lyk nth agn.. i find tt i reli cant understd her.. wad was she actuali tinkin bout.. m i not a gd std?did i nv gif her enuf love n concern? i dun tin so lor.. or m i not e kind of gal she lyk or..? arh... so pek cek.. den afta tt.. oso nv reli together.. stil got huda ard.. 7 she gona mit her mum..den she drop ed bishan.. though she evritym ask mi wad hapen?y so sad.. but i guess she noe lor..wad foe ask mi.. oredi too sad to sae anitin.. dere's hidden tears in my eyes wen i smile to her fakely.. den afta she alite..tears immediateli came down.. ppl was lookin ed mi.. but i culdnt hold bek my tears.. so xin ku..so xin tong.. was reli aching.. even if u dun reli tin tts serious,but i do reli feel sad... cant u jus be lyk e wae u r fer the past few daes? ytd..i wanted to tel u that recentli i cn feel tt u love mi ler..but todae it was jus e opposite.. do u reli love mi anot?if u dun,den cn u not continue hurting mi.. i rather u leave mi.. den to let mi noe u dun actuali love mi.. mayb u mite tink tt i reli tink too much... n that mite be possible..but these words was jus wad i feel at tis very moment.. i hope it wasnt lyk wad i've tot.. i wish wad i tot was all nonsensical rubbish...hais.. i feel that u're treatin mi lyk noraml fren sumtyms.. sumtyms lyk bu ru peng you.. cus u tok to dem more den u tok to mi.. u didnt care how i feel.. u didnt try to convince...u oni confuse mi by tins that u do..e way u tok n behave.. tel mi honestli if u reli wish to c mi evridae..or not ed al.. den i cn jus not appear infront of u ed e wrong tym..wrong moment.. wads wrong wit evritin..cn u tel mi wads goin on? u did not repli my msg 8 tyms todae..i duno wad to sae.. ders's no reson behind it.. feel so miserable...

boring dae.

2006-06-15T10:21:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 8+agn..so tired agn..hais..dots.. den nv reli da ban.. nv mek up..hair anihw tie.. shirt anihw whr..no tym ler..n sho tired..hw to do al those tins.. den todae jasong wong came to gb a tok on e face.. skin layers so on.. den todae ate nasi baryni agn..actuali dun wan eat sho much de..but jus feel lyk eating tt ed tt tym.. i scared gain weight agn..i dun wan..so scary.. i wan 55kg.. aniwae.. den afta sch go katong de ktv sing.. took wrong direction de bus.. waste tym.. den bus 76..was so so long lor..wait til hair oso becum white ler.. frm 6 sing til 7..10bucks.. den afta tt go eat agn..nt hungri lor..but kit wan eat..den i eat wit her..e stupit oily duck rice..pui.. den afta tt go bugis find bibi..she actuali told mi 8.30 wil cease work..den in e end bz agn..den she work til closing..sians.. waited 2hrs.. but heng stil got reson tel my mum.. if nort die ler.. den afta work she kept on tokin to soon eng lor.. nv tok to mi.. so fan..so no mood.. den i walk infront..dun disturb dem ler.. she so bu zi dong.. anw..its ova.. den i sen her home lor..though so late ler.. but nvm..den she sen mi go bus stop pei mi wait fer bus.. den hg awhile.. den~~*bit oni.. cus ed bus stop lo..public..dots..hais..another tin was.. wen she replyin msg or ppl msg her..duno whu.. ed or eng or whueva la.. was lyk.. i wan c oso canot.. my god... im her std lor.. so secretive fer wd.. i dun feel gd ed al lor..hais.. i oso nv lyk tt..n whr gt ppl lyk tt de.. hais..nxt tym dun c ler.. dots..nth to sae.. e mor i tin.. e mor pek cek i'll be.. n its nort e prob of i kpo or wad..i oso duno hw to sae.hais.nw so hungri...arh..

quite satisfied wt my dae.. she was in gd mood.

2006-06-14T08:59:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 8 +.. den do my tins. den mit kit ed khatib.. todae nvr learn ani new tins.. jus e same.. no.3 technique fer eyeshadow.. den evribodi gt partner except fer mi.. do personal mek up agn.. cus todae odd num of student.. den kit wt rachael..haa.. so suey.. i rather do myself..even nt so gd oso beta den dey do fer mi..dots.. den rachael in e end didnt fail to mek kit look lyk sumtin else.. lyk labixiaoxin,..lol.. e eyebrow part..phew.. den afta sch go find bibi..she end work ed 4 or 5 bahs..den she so tired..gt headache..hais.. den she slp ed pasta fer 20mins wors.. den soon later sen her home.. todae ``.4.. so mani.. omg.. somemore ish normal dae.. cus todae buy new pack ma.. den gb her half.. anw..den ed voideck sit awhile den go up her hse... cus no1 ed hm ma.. go up bout half hour.. den hghg.. ~~*but mis out sumtin.. teeth knock onto each other..den we laugh ..haha..mon gt col mi.. i mek him pek cek haha..sae i go other guy hse do tins..lol.funi..dejn he chup my col..den i col bek explain agn lor..haha..anw.. 2mr gt sch agn.. den bibi 2mr work 10-8...tin gt go sen her home bahs.. anw.. i'll try to find reason de.. if nort nv find her lyk beri wad ma.. jus hope tt she dun delay tym cn ler.. dots..

hapi bd christi..

2006-06-13T08:41:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 9+,,stil sho tired.. ytd she nv sae gd nite to mi ed 1st..den i angri ler.. afta tt she col bek to sae.. dots..den todae mornin she nv repli n ans.. mek mi pek cek agn..heng nv suddenli quarrel.. tis few daes stil quite fine de wors.todae 11 den wen out to work.. sort of abit late..cus normal 10.40+ wil go out le.. den heng nvr late..since 1st dae of work,nv late b4.. cus scared she angri wit mi..cus job she intro de ma..anw..todae was fine.. she got tok to mi once wok past or wad..at least nort bored..she nort bad mood cn ler..i wil be happier..den i end work ed 4..n tis few daes she nv kip on sayin mi.. once she start to nag,she wil quickli stop.. gt improvement..hahas..lyk tt beta.. den i end work ed 4.. den eat e sesame chicken pizza.. smell so nice,but oso not so nice.. eat alot wil wan vomit..lol. den wait fer her end work ed 6.. den christi birthdae todae..nv get her present.. cus no money ler.. hais.. anw..soon eng n bibi dey all gt get her present.. 1 gb lingeries..lol..bibi gib chocolate.. den wait fer mash potato to cum ..so late.. den dey bot bd cake fer her.. go upstairs actuali wan gb her surprise.but she saw us le..hahas.suey..den eat hao bd cake..delay bit of tym cht cht ler den i sen her go home lor..actuali she sae sho late le ..col mi dun sen..siao de..whr gt tis kinda tin.. ..dots.. den in mrt..she so tired..kip on wan fall aslp..den bus oso.. den i sen her go up tt tym..in lift.. she sae.."i tot u sae wan bite mi?" hahas.den she suey lor.. i reli go bite.. cus wan her gt 1 mark to rmbr mi..lol.den gt hug.no ~~8.cus no tym ler.. her mum col n nag agn.hais..anw.. she todae sho tired..cfm ltr..pom..slp ler.. hope she wil sae gd nyte 1st hahas.

she todae whole dae no mood ,tired +pek cek..dots..

2006-06-12T08:27:00.000-07:00

todae same..work ed 12-4..gt a malay guy nv cum..den busy lyk siao.. den sen wrong food..not i duno e food lor..ish too bz..blur le.. den manuel scold mi..but i stil xiaoxiao..cus i dun wan wei le tis no mood whole dae..but if e situation was lyk.. if she was e one who ish scoldin mi..i tink todae whole dae cn no mood ler.. black face whole dae..sad whole dae.. her words haf impact de wors.. anw.. den 4 finish work ler wait ed pasta til 6 plus.. jufri nv work.. but kana terminated ler..den abi mus stay late..cus not enuf ppl. anw..in e end she end work ed 8+..den i eat bbq chick pizza. den was so ful lor..afta tt she go down ``.wt mi. den i waited fer her to end work downstairs..wt michelle agn.den not afta 1/2hr``.another one.. duno y.. den go up e edge c xin ying gt work ant..cus ai hui told mi she workin upstairs.. den cht wit her awhile..den afta tt sen bibi hm..evritym ish she sen..now i sen lor.. lol.den she sae e straycat ed her hse downstairs de look lyk mi..dots..den actuali tot sen her to her hse downstairs oni.. who noes..afta tt she hold my hand go inside lift.. anw gt hughug lo.. n...bit. den she lyk she bu de go hm..stil ed lift outside tok tok.. den oso ~~*but not complete de.. okok oni.. den wen wan leave tt tym..she giv mi tt sad face agn..haiyo..dot dot dot..but sho cute..hahass.2mr workin 12-4 agnn.. duno wil gt to sen her hm ma lor..

normal de dae wors.

2006-06-11T10:29:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 11+ bahs.. drm finish den wake up ler..stil so so tired lor.. mon col mi in da mornin oso cant tok.. oni cn kip on ng ng ng.. hahas.den ed hm play wit my dollie head,teach my sis abit.. den 3plus go make up all tt.. 4 plus leave hm..5.30+ rch pasta.. den gt go ``. den go up work le lor.. todae closing quite fast..by 10.30 finish my job..cus bibi gt hlp out..she beri fast de.. no worries.. den in e end oso bout same tym go bek..cus e counter dere slow ma.. bo bians.. den todae she sen mi hm ler den hug hug..same lor.. den 10.~~*den she sae wan bao chou oso dun haf..sae bu she de..lol. funi.. tats al le..2mr mayb wil sen her hm afta work..buais..

ni you gen ai wo ma?lol

2006-06-10T10:38:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 1plus.. but b4 tt mon gt call mi..but i go bek slp..so so tired lor.. dots. den though slp til sho late..but stil super tired.. wake up le eat den go irc cht awhile.. den duno do wad sai.. den 3 plus make up all those den 4plus wen out ler... 5.30 rch bugis.. bibi pei mi eat..but i nvr eat much..totalli not hungri ed all.. n e food nt nice de wors..e stupit mushrooom so bitter..sucks man.. den afta tt go dwn ``. den ltr start work le... evritin was normal.. end work le she sen mi hm.. den at lift outside so funi lor.. got ppl come out of lift..den dot dot dot.. mi bite her shoulder..duno wil blueblack ma.. put bit of strength..haha.. den she evritym ren liao afta tt den oucHH.. haha..den face red red..so funi..cute de.. den we joke joke plae plae.. beta evridae sho hapi jiu hao le.. den afta tt ed e same place.. we hughug.. n ~~* awhile oni.. she blow agn.. den i bite her lip.. dot dot dot.. aniwae..todae actuali nth lor.. den wen leaving le.. she gave mi de bu she de de face agn..haiyo..dots.. now wan go col her le..hope she nort aslp by den..haha.lol. buai buais..

waited fer 5hrs fer my queen..hahass.

2006-06-09T11:12:00.000-07:00

todae monmon go in army ler..sians..no one cum find mi in da mornin ler..but he mornin gt col mi wake mi up.. 24 xiao de lao gong..hahas. den i was stil so tired though earli 2 hrs slp.. den blur blur wake up do my tins.. put bit makeup..cus todae ish hair course.. den nv brin mek up tin go deir ma.. den todae do on da dollie head..so funi.. i go kiss e dollie. den stupig ah mor go put e pic in her blog..dots.. den learn sq bun n bridal de so on lor.. not s easy s i tin.. not neat n creative enuf bahs..mus work harder le.. pratice more..hahas.dots. den afta sch go bugis pei ah mor do manicure.. den afta tt go pei bibi``.awhile oni..half stck..cus she not free ler.. den actuali mi wan go hm ler.. but she suddenli msg sae wan migo find her agn ed 7 or 8plus.. den i wait fer her downstairs lor.. sit ed the grasse dere cht wit michelle..hahas..den cht til 8+ she stil not free..den wait n wait..den saw june n her fren..den we go coffee shop sit sit cht cht awhile. den fta tt go pei mich agn.. den overall wait til 11+ den she cum dwn pei mi``. den she go up work le.. den i oso go up hlp dem do closing.. so slow lor..hais.. tot 11 cn close ler.. in e end 11.30.. imagine i nv hlp.. 12 ler lor..dots.. anw oso cant catch e stupig las train..actauli tot mus tek cab de..but no money.. heng in e end cot e las bus..851.. den she sen mi 1st ma..she drop ed khatib mrt stn..heng she stil gt train.. den in e end 12+ rch hm.. heng my mum win soccer match..gd mood nv scold mi..surprise..hahass..dots..2mr work 6-11.. tired..but 2mr i wil slp til late late de..hahas..

saw woodbridge personel..hahass

2006-06-09T10:42:00.000-07:00

08/06.todae woke up ed 8+. mon cum my hse pei mi..den sen mi go sch.. oso gt mit kit ..den todae learn eyeshadow [T-technique].. quite nice de wors..den its lyk.. i evritymownself make up instead of let ppl hlp mi mek..haas.. i doubt deir skillss.. dot dot..lol. den i was lyk having my own personal make up course sia..funi.. den todae bibi actuali mittin her fren de..new fren..go ktv..but in e end nv go cus her fren ling shi cant mek it.. she so pek cek.. aniwae..mornin msg her oso nvr repli..den tok to her.. got bit att.. den i was lyk..no mood agn lor.. den ``.2stck.. to distress.. den go bek class make up tt tym..make up til so ugly..cus no mood tt tym,draw wad oso nt nice.. den i nv frown,kit n rachel oso saw my face nt same lor.. hais..dots.. den afta tt she col mi gib mi reason fer her tis n tat.. awhile ltr okok ler.. den finalli can make up nice nice ler.. den afta sch she wait fer mi downstairs my sch.. wait fer awhile.. cus actuali cn go ler..but rachael hlp kit draw her face til lyk ghost..hahas..den no face mit ppl ler..den she so pek cek lor.. den i hlp her do agn..simple de..cus dun wana let bibi wait so long.. afta bibi go mac eat..she hungri ma.. fta tt go far east..kit go mit her fren..den mi n bibi go cineleisure..cus she wan go more den words.. actuali tot she kei siao..tot she wan go c bk de sum1 de.. but surprise..she nv go in... but notice her took a peek dere nia..at least lyk tt stil nvm.. den go walk walk awhile den ``. le den go bek ler.. she drop ed amk cus her mum naggin ler.. den ed yck got a szb tt look lyk normal woman came in.. she zi yuan zi yu lor.. i stil tot she gt earpiece on her ear..yuan lai dun hav.. den she kept tokin..den tok finish ler den kiss.. so scary..but funi more..e fei po in front of mi oso laugh til lyk siao.. i oso tolerate the funiness so long til bth den laugh out ler.. was reali hilarious man!! hahass. den i was tinkin..wad if she slap mi..lol..heng nv.. den rch khatib ler she get down tt tym.. i tot she was normal..but u noe wad hapen? she actuali went out from 1 cabin n get into the cabin beside..siaos de..stil look ed mi.. omg.. zhong sie ler..lol..den rch hm msg her.. den col her awhile..her mum haven slp.. so must ltr den col mi.. den i switch hp silent ma..cus dun wana disturb my isi.. den hw i noe.. once i chup e fone,2minutes ltr pomp liao..hahas.. 1st tym nv tok finsh slp ler.. reli so so tired..dots..

lyk nv c her lyk tt..

2006-06-07T07:24:00.000-07:00

todae got scoo. i woke up ed 8 instead of 7.. too tired le la..bo bian.. den faster do my tin..nv make up.. no tym.. den mit kit cus mon go pray his ah ma..no tym sen mi go.. den mit kit ed khatib lor.. den gang hao bibi oso ed amk mrt wan go work.. den mit her in last cabin lor..at least cn c her in da mornin beta den nth.. den she play wit her hp..soccer game..evritym in mrt or bus oso lyk tt de..dun bother tok to mi.. game more entertainin..sians..den afta tt mi kit n rachael alite ed orchard den she go bugis ler lor.. got c her lyk nv c lyk tt.. den bit sians ler lor..den ``.todae learn facial care.. learn how to put ampoule n facial mask.. but lyk no diff..mayb cus use 1st tym oni..den todae so earli dismiss lor.. 12+ dismiss ler.. den we make up le go mac eat den left ler.. pei kit go raffles buy cute mat fer her ah peng.. shun bian go kat de ah yi de lao auntie shop c c.. so er xin lor.. lao auntie wear de tins.. den afta tt go dwn eat ice-cream..den kit go novena mit her dad n sis eat..i go mit monmon ed ps.. we go watch movie..(the nun).. nort nice de show..waste money..so wu liao.. b4 tt gort go buy dress ed e-base..quite nice de..but my sis sae i wear le luk fat lei..duno..dot dot..den mit bibi ed 2nd last cabin ed dhoby ghaut.. she nv reli tok to mi..once sae bout e pasta mania tin..i tin i wan faint,she wan vomit blood agn ler.. hais..owas lyk tt de..aiya..dun sae ler..yue shuo yue pek cek lor..den afta tt she play wt her hp agn.. dun bother tok to mi..mek mi so upset.. duno c her fer wad.. c lyk nv c.. sians sians sians.....arghhhhh..den she alite ed amk..mi n mon khatib.. my tears came down agn.. drop on mon de shoulder..mayb cus tu ran feel so xin ku agn.. den go ``. den fta tt mon cum my hse use com lor..pei mi kmore..cus fri he goin in ns le..wil mish him alot alot de wors..hais..

r u a thermometer?

2006-06-07T06:48:00.000-07:00

06/06.todae i woke up ed 8+.. todae work frm 12-11... sians.. den monmon sen mi go work lor..den he go hm ler.. todae work tt tym let her sae gan..she sae i learn so slow..den wadeva...dots.. den sae tok to mi wan vomit blood.hais..i slow learner lor.. den i stupit cn? bu pei zhuo ni de std.. hais.. was lyk tinkin if i nv step into e cashier part beta..evritym let her sae..ish totali de bu shuang..totali de no mood.. stil mus force my smile out.. so xin ku lor..hais..den e face she gave mi ish damn pathetic de lor.. c ler oso pek cek..c ler feel lyk e tears immediateli wan cum dwn lyk tt.. hais.. whu sae mi oso nvm.. she sae mi..i jus shou bu liao..hais..den aft tt nv tok to her a few hrs.. wok past i oso no mood tok to her.. i rather be all alone outside,leave her yuan yuan de..then to mek her pek cek..c her black face.. dun understd how cn a person sae her std til lyk tt lor.. i wil nv do such tin de.. wan to oso cant bear to do.. den more den half e dae ish no mood de... kip tryin to 4gt bout it..so xin ku lor.. wan cry ler.. busy tt tym den faster do tins go 4gt bout it.. aftann she ask mi go order food .. den she ownself nv eat..ask her y oso dun repli.. den i oso no wei kou le..den eat e banana pizza oni.. chicken bolog i throw away le.. actuali was so hungri de.. e no mood mek mi eat pizza oso cn ful le.. hais.. den near e end of e dae le den go ``. den evritin became normal agn.. her mood was owas changing..hais.. duno y..duno hw.. den do closing le so tired.. she actuali sae dun wan sen mi hm de..but den oso gt sen.. in mrt tried to joke mek her laugh.. i rather she evridae smile den bad mood.. den she sen mi go up agn lor.. den got hug hug n ~~*awhile..she blow agn..dot dot dot..she heard e duno wad sound frm my home de tv den she start laughin agn le..den nyte wait fer her col til 2+.. but hou lai found tt she fell aslp le..i noe she tired aniwae..but she reli slpin queen lor..hais.. eat half cn fal aslp..den e nex dae sae i stupit go wait.. nv use brain at e ryte tym.. dots.. i tin i go faint beta...

last whole dae pei mon le..

2006-06-06T10:45:00.000-07:00

05/06.todae mornin wen to bibi de hse ed 11 plus. rch dere bout 12..tot she goin out ed 2pm..den cn pei her 2hrs..den yuan lai she goin out soon..to pay hp bill..sians half ler..dot dot dot..den afta tt go paya lebar e duno col wad de go queue..so long lor.. den she afta tt den tot of use my posb card pay..haiyo.. den afta pay ler go bugis ler lor.. rch dere 2 plus..den we go mac eat nuggets.. den ``. le den she go work ler.. afta tt monmon cum find mie..den while waitin fer mon to rch..i go the grasse,last tym de workin place cht wit michelle.. hahas..got a fren dere zhen hao.. den fta tt go katong de ktv wit monmon..actuali feel lyk goin sentosa de wors..but he dun wan.. afta tt go lil india mum mum.. e indian restaurant..food was super nice lor..n oso super ex..spent 23 bucks eat 2 plate rice,2 plate chicken n 2 cup of drinks..siaos de.. though food so nice but i eat til too full.. hen bu su fu..kip on wan vomit.. den we took cab go bugis find bibi tt tym i go pasta mania de toilet vomit..was lyk evri single bit of food lor.. den waste money hahs.. but at least eat into e mouth..taste le den vomit ma..haas.. n wun fat.. curry so fattening lo.. now mi 62.5kg.. lost ler 2 kg ler..sho hapi..but lyk stomach got prob lor..dot dot dot..den find bibi ``. ler den mi n mon took bus hm le.. actuali wan wait fer her cease work de..but too late le..mummy col mi immediateli go hm afta eat wors...haas.. hais den too bad ler..anw heng her ex,jac gt wait fer her.. if nort i cfm feel beri wad de lor.. den 2mr suei suei mus work 12-11... piangs..siso liao lor..cn faint..e oni gud tin was cn c her 11 hrs oni..hahass..

wu liao de dae..

2006-06-04T09:22:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 10+ bahs cus bibi col mi.. den afta tt cant slp ler.. actuali todae no work de.. but lack of staffas so she col mi go hlp out lor..she ask mi go..i cfm go de ma.. but den she off..so beri sianss..hais..i work 6-11.. afta beri bored..so ownself go running ler..so qin lao lo.. 2mr cfm muscle ache cus 4gt stetch b4 run.. den afta run cum hm slp awhile..so tired.. 2 den wake up do tins den 2+ go out..go amk cut hair.. go jian bao oni... so easier to giap... den afta tt go bugis ler..saw ah mor ed 2nd level..she do e pedi.. todae she n her pengpeng 1 yr ler..lol..i tot wun so long de.. hapi anniversary to ah mor n ah peng.. haahas.. den afta tt go wok wok awhile den go eat mac ler den go work ler..sians sians sians..afta work he sen mi hm lor.. lyk tt lor..nth ler...2mr cn c her..sho hapi wors...

hapi endin at last wors..

2006-06-03T10:33:00.000-07:00

todae mit bibi ed her hse downstairs ed 12+. binko gt cum along..cus she tot got go c e yang chen ling de.. but in e end i gt work ma..den ahyang oso haven cum...den mi n binko go sim lim square wt bibi.cus she wan buy thumbdrive.. but in e end nv buy lei.. afta tt go eat outside sim lim de foodcourt..mi n binko eat duckrice..so nice wors.. yum yum...nx tym go eat agn.. afta tt tot ahyang wil cum ed 3 de..so wait dere awhile wait fer kit cum..but hou lai den noe tt ish 5.30 den cum..den cfm wil delay tym de ma..so in e end nv c lor.. 3+ go bugis street wok wok.actuali kit wan do pedicure de..but nv book appt so mus wait.. den she dun wan.. mi n kit go put nice nice e cyrstal on hp.. so ex lor.. but ok..quite nice.. but work finish ler saw e crystal half drop out..so xin tong..den i try to stick it bek..hope wun waste money lo.hais.. afta tt go icon wok wok..nth nice de..so wu liao..no wonder so lil ppl go ..den fta tt go bek pasta mania eat..e staff meal mi n bibi share wit kit n binko.. got banana pizza,bbq chicken pizza n spicy chicken fusili..mi no wei kou eat alot cus of sumtin..but hou lai okie ler.. dun tin negative ler.. but oso nv eat much la.. ltr wan vomit agn.. todae pasta mania quite busy wors.. den bibi ed cashier dere oso no tym cum out pei mi..dot dot dot.. den afta work she sen mi hm.. by e tym rch lift oredi 11.57 ler..so tot she wan jus sen mi hm den go gm immediateli de..sianns..but heng got surprise..hou lai st corridor hug hug den ~~* 1L1S. feel lyk duno how mani hundred yrs nv hug ler since e last hug..cus..erms..duno lei..dots.. den so hapi.. got gd ending..haha.. lyk tt lor..todae s usual..she fel aslp while chttin wt mi on da fone agn..hais..but den i oso noe she tired..so jus let her slp ler lor.. i lurve her..haa..2mr wil not be able to c her.. cus we nv work..but monmon aftnn wil cum pei mi bahs.. hope he cum earlier..if not bored to ''deaf'' ler..haahas.lol.

a veri fine dae wors`

2006-06-02T09:08:00.000-07:00

todae tot gt work de..frm 6-11.. den bibi cht wit mi on da fone tt tym tel mi dun haf..heng ar..if not i oredi go ler..den tot todae wil b a beri sians dae.. mon pei mi til 2+ den go work..2mr he nv work ler.. goin chu si.. but oso wil get to c him de la..dots. den 4 plus hlp my mum mek up..to practice..find it al ryte..but cn be beta.. eyebrow stil beri difficult wors.. cn c e foto ..quite nice de..haa.. den we go heeran..cus kit wan go e tatoo shop check her belly hole.. cus gt problem ler.. den e person sae too jia lat ler..mus tek out..half yr ltr den cn pierce gan..hais..den she cry ler..cus dun haf pretty de stud on her belly ler.. cant go sentosa n wild wild wet..haa.so funi..she sad tt tym..dots.. den afta tt go muji c e mek up bag..but no compartment de..quite ugly..so nv buy ler.. duno whr to buy nicer de lei.hais. den fta tt go pasta mania eat..i nv eat.. cus not hungri.. bibi took e chocolate mousse gb mi eat.. but mi oso no wei kou to eat tt de..den kit hlp mi finish up half of it.. she ish greedy pig..kip on eatin n eatin.. aniwae wun grow fat.haa..i rmbr i mornin oni eat abit of mee fen..den aftnn eat abit of crbmeat n fishcake..no rice at all.. nite stil nv eat.. jian fei lyk tt.. haa.. duno y til 12+ den hungri lei.. tin go drink milo enuf ler.. dun wan grow fat animore.. tin mus find tym go run le..diet + exercise cfm wil slim arh.. den cn wear nice nice de clothes ler..haa dots.. afta she eat ler we go bugis street..actuali mi wan cut hair de.. but al da shop close ler lei..sians.. dun lyk my hair animore.. sians. den kit actuali wan go do pedicure de..but stil got 2 customer..so beri slow den nv do ler. wok wok awhile den go wait fer bibi free tym go ``.but she til 10++ den free.. kit actuali wan rch hm by 11 de..but i kip on delayin her tym..haa. mi oso late go hm ler..but cn c her more hapi lo.. den afta ``. ler den wait fer her cease work.actuali wan go hm wit kit de ..cus dun wan be lightbulb todae..mus zi dong abit..cus edwin tmr goin in ns ler.. scared he angri.. but bibi ask mi wait..sho wait lo..den afta go tek mrt thgr..edwin dere she stil hold my hand...ltr he hot til bao cha..den afta tt wan rch amk ler..she kip on lyk she bu de lyk tt..1st tym ehs.. evrtym ish mi she bu de de..so guai hor?duno y..mayb she todae chao gd mood bahs..den i alight ed khatib..kit ed sem...b4 i leave her,stil ci ji her bout e belly agn..haa.. funi lor..so fun..her stupit monkey face.. becum red buttock ler..hahahahaha..

hapi tt u're hapi..

2006-06-01T07:38:00.000-07:00

mi todae got up ed 8plus..was sho tired.ytd nite msg wt bibi..slept ed 3plus.. she more cham..cant get to slp .. 4plus den slp..she slp 3hrs oni mus wake up ler.. cus 10 got work.she work til 2..afta tt she go out wt edwin n frens ler.. go sentosa n other places..monmon sen mi go scoo..got mit kit ed las cabin too.. ed bishan.. todae in sch learn another technique of eyeshadow application..use pencil de.. was quite okok wit it.. i stil sae e same word..practice makes perfect.haa.. fta scoo mi go bishan wt kit cus she ask mi pei her go order cake fer her 1st yr aniversary wt her peng peng.. afta tt i go toa payoh wit her go eat wt her dad n sis.. actuali not so hungri de..but since she wan eat den eat lor.. wen rch hm den sian sian ler..haa.. evritym lyk tt de.. n bibi sae nx week wan brin mi go out ehs.. wah..waitin fer tt dae wors.. monmon left 1 more week ler..so sad.. hais.. den wen he go army.. cfm sians de.. 2weeks ltr den cn c him.. nobodi wil cum in e mornin to mit mi ler..hais..jus nw go toa payoh bot e name sticker..sliver colour de.. n bot a keychain..put abi de name.. den i go mek it s hp chain..nicer ma..hope monmon wun jealous haha..2mr i got work frm 6-11.. bibi work frem 3-11..cn c her ler..sho hapi.. without her..dae was lyk du re ru nian...lol..

my word to eu oni

2006-05-31T08:06:00.000-07:00

my felts . my tots . & my words to eu frm e bottom of muh hart .

dear bibi. i nid u to reli understand how much u meant to mi.though words couldnt tel all,but i wil try my best to mek u understand.firstli,fer replying ur msg,u nid not sae sori to mi fer lettin mi haf such a worse relation ship s i nv haf tt tot. no matter hw much quarrel we had,how much sadness u may bring,may dere be ani unhappiness,i wil nv trit our relationship s e worse 1 i had. i m hapi to haf u s my std.i nv tot i would std wit a gal.mayb fate brot us 2gthr.i swear tt u wil be e first , last & e oni gal tt wil be in muh hart.4eva. even if e ending suld be bitter. im oredi hapi to chen jing yong you ni .i've owas hope to brin u happiness but i fail to do so. admit tt im reli a failure. i reli hate myself. i noe im owas tinkiin negativeli tt u've owas hated mi for,but i promise u i'll try my best to change. i hate all da quarrels we had fer e past 1 week.sori to haf made u so xin tong.so sad.so fan.so pek cek.so angri. i noe im not a gd std. so even if one dae u were to brk up wit mi,i wil not blame u fer tt. i noe i cant brin u happiness.so i rather u be hapi wit sum1 esle .i reli wish fer ur happines.. sumtyms i reli feel so xin suan wen e tot of u being wit mi so unhappili.u're a nice gal.wil nv regret to hav known u even though u wish u hav nv known mi.even though i couldnt afford to lose u s my std,i hope u wil let mi noe if eur feelings fer mi haf fated sumdae.i know u're stil tinkin bout e past. tt i couldnt change e fact,but i hope u'll be hapi once agn. i hate to c u sad. c u torturing urself.i rather bear all e pain fer eu.. though ur love fer mi was oni tt lil bit,im oredi contented enuf s i noe i dun deserve more love frm eu. but one tin i want to let u noe.i reli do love u alot. owas loving u wholeheartedly.i'll owas be dere fer u no matter wad happen.. mayb i duno hw to console u.. but i'll owas b at eur side fer u to lean on..i wil appreciate eu all daes of my life,no matter how,no matter wad,i hold u dearly in my hart,cus u're e one whu cn mek mi laugh & cry,u're e happiness tt i wan..u are e oni one i wish to c,e voice i wan to hear b4 i slp.i treasure evri moment wen im wit eu... sarang heyo...mwarksSs

sori if u haf e worse relationship wt mi..im an idiot aniwae.hais

2006-05-31T07:50:00.000-07:00

todae woke up ed 8..mon came to my hse ed 8 plus.. ytd sumtin crop up agn..mornin "we' both oso unhapi.. she wen to work ed 9++. mi go sch. in mrt saw kit..so qiao wors.. she nv repli my msg.. tot she angri agn.. ytd mayb i said the wrong words bahs.. i kip on sayin her.. but i was jus stating wad i tot.. hais.. todae my msg mek her bad mood agn. whole dae so unhapi.. [fan+pek cek+sad+angri+moody].. she had she a bad dae.hais.. nv eat frm morning til cease work.. mi was so guilty.. hais.. evridae mek her sad..y.. arh...hais.. i didnt want to.. todae in sch learn eyeshadow n eyelashers.. was quite ok bahs..jus nid more practices..end sch ler go fetch bibi frm work.. wen i rch dere..tok to her oso dun ans.. was so sad..hais.. plus xin tong tt i made her dae lyk tt.. den sen her bek de guo cheng.. she nv once held my hand.. i duno y.. but i didnt want to sae anitin.. cus since she dun feel lyk holdin my hand.. i tink so much fer wad.. lyk idiot lyk tt.. den at firx nv tok much..she nv tok to mi... i oso nv sae anitin cus i reli duno wad to sae.. scared i sae wrong tin.. n scared i'll fail to bring bek e smile on her face.. til mrt stn den slowli got tok ler.. but she kept on sighing.. i reli feel very bad..hais.. facial expression couldnt show..once in awhile i tried to mek her laugh..cus dun wana c her moody de face.. i wan her to be hapi instead.. she sad..i more sad..hais..i scared to c her angri face.. c ler no mood ler.. hate myself.. im a failure.. i knew it..

no miracle hapen..lol.

2006-05-30T09:37:00.000-07:00

todae woke up at 10++.. monmon rch my hse at bout 10..so wait at living room haha.. den he 12++ go work le..todae mi aftnn stil gort go slp for 1 to 2 hrs lyk tt.. cus scared work tt tym tired ma.. den 2 wake up.. 4 plus leave hse..cus wan rch dere ed 5.. n i was reali puntual..5pm on e dot..haha..funi.. den 5++ go dwn wit bibi go ``.den 6 she left wit edwin ler..mi sians half ler..dot dot dot.. at 1st she sae wad rubbish ..e tag i rote in her blog.. den her face change.. den my mood oso change ler lor.. haaa. was tinkin wad so rubbish ne?or she scared ppl c.. hais.. den no appetite eat ler.. den eat banana pizza oni lor.. even oni tt.. was feelin so full.. mei wei kou ish lyk tt de.. aniwae..cn jian fei lor.. dots.. den she left tt tym.. mi so moody.. wan cry ler.. but tu ran xiang xiang..cry fer wad sia.. mayb reali too bored ler bahs..evritym luk ed e cashier dere tt tym..kip on imagining it was her busy doin her tins.. to pian zi ji.. dots.. den closing was okie lor.. mi mop beri fast.. cus abi nort ard..scared e other staff do tins slow.. so mi do faster beta bahs.. aniwae did finish my tins ler..i was e 1st wan to leave.. bout 10.45..rch hm bout 12++..lyk tt lor.. nth much ler.. 2mr scoo dae.. e most sian tin was ..she work 10 2mr.. so cant c her more..hais.. mayb mit ed mrt oni bahs.. duno lei..dots..mayb afta scoo wil go find her bahs..

we oni miss e ending part wors..

2006-05-29T10:08:00.000-07:00

todae mornin i woke up ed 11.. mon cum my hse bout 9+ bahs.. den home food so er xin..so we go yishun de 900+ mum mum.. ate the beri nice chicken rice wors.. den afta tt he sen mi go hm ler den he go work le.. mi go home slp til 3 den wake up do my tins..bout 4.30++ wen out fer work ler.. bibi told mi she wil b workin til 11 cus a guy nv cum last min.. though is sho tiring fer her..but at least i nort sho sians ma.. todae she gort find tym cum out pei mi awhile.. den was quite hapi todae.. bout 10pm.. duno wad hapen..she angri ler.. mi oso duno wad to do.. so nv tok awhile..but afta okie ler.. she sae ish becus i dun believe tt she hapi cus cn c mi..lol.. but i tot was e tag no.28 de problem.. so scary.. todae ah yi de fren nancy came pasta eat ma. den we tok abit lor..dot dot dot.. den fta end worrk she sen mi home..she so kan chiong go home.. so we miss out e endin part ler.. hais..if nort todae wil b a wan zhen de yi tian..lol.. den sumor she wed n thurs work at 10.. sians.. i waited fer the twon daes 4 1 week ler lor.hais.. sians sians sians...

my sadness took a break..

2006-05-28T08:29:00.000-07:00

todae working frm 12-4..mon sen mi go work de..so nice of him..n bibi was working frm 3-11..hais.. but at least al ryte todae.nth much hapen..wasnt a bad dae... 4 cease work le den eat wit bibi..stephanie n shi han..in e end both of dem eat finish ler left mi n bibi..den we at dere slowli eat.. mi eat half plate of e baked rice oredi so ful ler.. cus cus gt eat banana pizza..evritym see e pizza tt tym wil owas remind mi of tt particular dae wen bibi walk so long to find my house in e middle of e nite to tek pizza let mi eat..hahas.. den she ask mi y ytd ask her tt ques..i sae nth.. hais.. actuali i stil askin e same old ques cus feel tt e kind of love i wanted wasnt dere yet.. duno if dere wil b tt dae wen she could reali put away her past n b serious in loving mi ma.. but i kinda oredi fang qi ler.. cus lyk wil nv eva hapen..hais.. even if she tel mi how much she love in oso no use if its not written in her hart.. as it is jus a sayin nia.. den afta eat ler awhile ltr we go down ``. e feelin of sittin beside her was s nice s b4.. dots.. den go up tt tym gt ~~*a few secs..so suang.. den afta tt mi go hm ler.. in e mrt listen mp3 omos sleep cus quite tired.at nite was usual..mus wait fer her late col.. she so bu zhi dong..cant try her best to col mi earlier..duno y.. oso dun wana go n tink boutr it..lyk tt lor..dot dot dot... 2mr more jia lat.. mus work 6-11..den bibi work 10-6..lyk cant c her..sians half ler..

go shoppin wit monmon..haa.

2006-05-27T09:07:00.000-07:00

e machine which i took neoprin ed..ed heeran de..next tym den post e pic..now lazy to scan.haaha..
P.O.A de t-shirt..pic was turned 90 degree right..lol..normal yet nice fabric..
my new slipper..sho nice lors..kekess..
e bag i bot..lyk la pa de shape.haa..quite ke^ai de wors..
e loose spagetti..
my cardigan..hao kan ma?lol
e stage de foto..
cool hor..binko love him..haa..
shuai hor..lol..tou pai ta..
e skeleton..hahaaa..
e shuai ge n de big mouth e big movement performance...
zhong qing n xiaoling discussin tins wit e duno whu..
steven de stupit movement n e duno whu..dots..
duno deir stupit name..but u suld noe dem bahs..
dey gt voting but i nvr go vote haha...oni go kpo cc ..
todae mi no work..monmon actuali gt work de but cus take pay todae,n scared mi bored so nv go work n pei mi go shoppin..mornin smal tin hapen.. i col abi den blah blah blah..in e end she sae nth n bye..den wan chup fone le..so i feel guai guai de..fil lyk she dun wana tok to mi lyk tt. so msg her tel her if dun wan tok to mi den jus sae so.. den ask her y evridae mus change diff attitude..was quite sad..den afta tt den she told mi cus her mum ard so cant tok to mi.. den blah blah blah.. gt 1 msg go test her ..c she is wan repli de ma.. heng afta tt she gt col..if not i cfm no mood de.. den mi n monmon ftch ah wor go ah ma hse.. i nv go up..cus tot got go ftch abi frm amk go work de..cus aniwae goin to bugis mar.. so long nv c ah ma ler..duno wad she wil tink of mi..so sad..skali she tin i dun wana c her..but tts not e case.. hais..aniwae mi wil jing liang find tym go c her de. . den aniwae abi scared she late fer work if wait fer my taxi to cum..haa...so she went to tek mrt wit edwin ler..wen i rch bugis go c her awhile den go kfc eat ler den go bugis street shop ler.. go find earstud fer her..sho diff to choose..cus duno wad kind she lyk.. den i oso bot 3 pair of earring lor..cus mi lack of earring ler..dot dot dot.. den bout 5 go pei her ``.pass e earstud gif her.. afta tt go shop agn fer more tins..bot 1 cardigan n 1 spagetti.. 1 slipper n 1 bag.. afta tt go up c her awhile den go far east ler ..b4 we tek mrt.. at bugis parco outside gt e yong bu yan bai de ppl...so i kpo go c..took sum foto oso.. at fast east bot a t-shirt frm P.O.A cost 49 de..but gt discount 20%.. tot e shirt was 18.. but mon sae he buy so anitin..if not beri lao kui..e person tek ler den dun buy.. actuali afta tt wan go Lido watch movie de..but no nice show..so decide to go heeran eat lor..b4 tt we go tek neoprint..foto wasnt s nice s b4..duno y..eyes too small bahs..n mon no hair ler haa..den go eat wanton mee ..actuali nt hungri de..but since mon wan eat..den pei him eat lor..dot dot dot.. afta tt actuali wan go hm ler..but pass by e NIKE shop tt tym..tu ran tot of abi.. lyk beri wad..todae shoppin yet nv buy anitin except fer earstud fer her lyk tt,so go buy t-shirt fer her lor..orange de...hope she wil lyk bahs.. afta tt tek bus go hm..so a tired but fun dae..nite col abi..but col duno how mani tym den ans col.. told mi no batt ler..but stil cn get thru..so guai lo.. den bo bian but to wait fer her col ler.. her mum haven slp wen she rch hm..den she sae ltr den col mi lo..hope she wun fall aslp by den..dots...

edwin scared mi-sae todae no work..~

2006-05-26T10:04:00.000-07:00

ytd abi told mi sae todae gt work,yet edwin sae dun haf.. scared mi lor.. mek mi no mood the whole nite to e mornin sians.. todae bibi cum my hse at 10.30.. ahe gona leave at 11..so left hlf hr..so wu liao.. den listen song awhile den afta tt go downstairs ``.sian sian de mi waited fer monmon to cum my hse ed 11.. but he late 15mins..aniwae nbm.. was so sians lor..he oso knew tt..he c mi so pek cek..he oso pei mi pek cek le.. if todae miracle nb hapen..den todae wil b a beri sad dae..sians.. actuali mon c mi lyk tt.. decide to sacrify his workin day de.. den pei mi whole dae..was sho hapi.. but afta tt bibi col mi sae todae i gt work.. oso quite hapi..cus if not cant c her more..dae fer mi would b miserable lor..den start work ed 6.. mi slp til 4 den went out ed 5.rch dere 5.30.. den todae wasnt tt bad.. cus no sad tin.. den todae she gt improvement.cus nv neglect mi.. s usual afta work sen mi hm ..dot dot dot.. s usual ~~*..aniwae todae wasnt a bad dae..2mr no work but duno gt go out ma.. if gt go out den go buy tins lo.. haa..

a pathetic de sad dae..sobs.

2006-05-25T05:42:00.000-07:00

todae mornin nvr go her hse..cus her sis usin com.. mi was unhapi cus she nvr tel mi tt i cant cum.. den so earli in da mornin change le,evritin prepare hao le.. yet sho late le she oso dun bother to tel mi ..hais..mi msg her lor..sae al da unhapi tins.. den dot dot dot..so on and so forth.. can read e below msg to c e hurtin tins she wrote in her blog tt mek mi so so sad..cried ler...no mood for lesson..but i oredi tried my best.. hais.. though i wish so much tt she could 4gt bout her past,but she actuali cant.. n i dun reli understd y.. y e feelin fer mi wasnt tt much..y love fer mi cant be more.. she actuali said she wan giv up.. hw could i accept e fact ne?losin her wil mean losin myself too.. i wil no longer haf a soul tt belongs to mi...no longer be myself agn le..mayb she dun feel e love i gave her..but i reli wish she could understad how important a part she plays in my life.. no1 wil understd how xin tong i felt wen she said those words.. hope she haf nv wrote tt blog.. i was stupit n curious to go c e blog frm kit hp.. tt made mi sad fer a few hours.. in e clas.. though deres frens ard.. i stil cant stop e tears from cumin down.. heart kept beatin sho fast...body was warmer den eva..cus feel lyk knife piercing thru my hart..was bleedin frm inside..afta sch le more sad.. go find lawrence,cus tin he wil be e oni 1 i could look fer.. wanted him to an wei wo.. i feel terrible..hais..den cus kit no whr go den folo mi go.. in da bus i listen to mp3.. hear e song oso sad..tears kept on droppin down..though kit was beside mi,i have no choice..jus got to look out of a window.. cant wipe away e tears cus scared she c..but in e end i tin she oso tou tou c ler..mit monmon ler i oso cried ler..hais..he ask mi y.. but i jus cant put into words..cus once start e story wil cry ler.. afta tt msg her..afta tt ok ler..sho happi lor..lyk nvr b4.. den mood came bek ler..dot dot dot.. heng nth bad hapen..if not i wil faint ar..hais..hope tins tt wil cum nxt ,mi n her wil be able to get thru..lets reli hope so bahs..

nvr imagine tis would actuali hapen..hais

2006-05-25T05:38:00.000-07:00

abi dar wrote e blog..which mek mi so so sad..hais..
"jus wat is happenin.. aft tat monday i say sth wrong den everyth start to becm worst.. my attitude change le i do tink so aft u say but i reali dunno y.. cuz i jus hv too much things on my mind.. mayb i jus being selfish tat all.. i always an idiot de.. always jus do wat i wanna do but nv tink abt other ppl feelin i reali cant take it le.. i dun wan to carry on le.. i jus reali wish u nv luv me at all.. i reali dun wanna c u sad n unhappy.. u becuz of me unhappy n sad hw many time le.. nt onli one tm it been alot of tm le. u knw hw i feel ma.. i feel hlpless.. i dunno wat to do.. i reali very confused le.. when u sad i will tell myself nt again.. pls.. y is it always happenin to me.. i cant take it anymore jus let me die.. i nw hv to go my mom office to wk le.. hut since mornin i nv do anyth.. i jus lay on my bed jus lazy to do anyth.. later go office sure get scoldin de... y on my off day stil hv to wk.. sick n tired of everyth.. i reali dun wan to carry on le.. my head nw is damn pain.. u wan scold me or wat i dun mind if it make u feel better.. i reali feel lyk gvin up than hurtin u so much.. i dun wan to c u hurt n c u in pain.. u tink i dun hv feelin de meh. aft all im a human.. pls tell me wat to do nw.. i reali wish i m alone nw.. den i can hurt no1.. it jus to painful to carry on le.. since feb till nw everyth seem so bad.. n it true tat i stil cant forget e past.. i jus cant.. i lied to u tat i hv but i jus cant it nt becuz u nt gd enough for me n u nt a gd stead it jus abt me.. it all abt me n my past.. if i cant 4get e past i cant luv u wholeheartenly.. i knw i shouldnt hv agree tat day.. cuz i tot if i can find sum1 else i can 4get e past but it nt.. i jus cant.. i knw u wan to c me happy.. im happy to hv u.. but i reali dun wanna c u hurt by me u understand it nt tat i dun luv u anymore.. it jus i dunno wat i tinkin nw also.. i tink it better for me to stay single ba i guess.. den at least i knw i wont hurt any1 or ppl get hurt becuz of me.. i reali hate myself.. all e msg u send me.. i reali dunno hw to reply u bk nw... cuz i dun wan to lie to u tat i do luv u.. i do luv u but nt as much as u luv me ba i guess.. haiz.. i dunno wat to do.. sum1 pls hlp me.. jus let me die.. if i leave tis world everyth will be much better for u.. i dun wan becuz of me u nt happy.. dunno wat to say le.. haiz.... "

make up leeson -learn trim n draw eyebrow..keke

2006-05-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

todae mornin wen to bibi hse at 8..sho late cus she lan zhu..slpin wen i called her.. gave her 25 miss col + 2msgs.. 1 of tt was to scold her de.. haa.. den in e end rch her hse ed bout 8.40..left bout half hr to pei her le lor..sians.. wan faint ler.. aniwae..to sae..e tym wasnt wasted..lol.. we 15mins~~~..broke al da records ler.. den n 2^^..lol.. den was late abit fer sch.. but nvr miss da important parts.todae learn eyebrow trimmin n drawing.. nv get to trim cus kit n rachael de eyebrow oso left ji tiao ler..haa.. den oni get to draw..nobodi gt to do mine sucessfully.. cus diff lor..i drew rachael nkit de.. was not bad la.. at least gt e shape ryte.. you chen jiu gan..haa.den afta sch go causeway wit kit cus she wana go c whether dere get sell name sticker mah..but too bad dun hav..hais.. was sho moody since dismiss frm sch cus of e tot of cant c her. den fta tt call to ask her whether she wan mi sen her hm ma.. den she sae okie lor.. sen her home de period of tym..wasnt tt hapi.. she seems unusual todae..n i didnt feel ryte.. haiya duno wad to sae..alot of tins lor.. afta sen her hm..mi cry le.. cus felt sho terrible yet she didnt realise.. hais.. dun wana tok bout it ler.. 2mr duno gt go her hse ma.. now wan tok to her de..but cant get thru e fone.. scared she fall aslp agn hais..owas de same.. nth to sae le.. dot dot dot..

1st tym sen bibi hm..

2006-05-23T07:12:00.000-07:00

mon mornin cum my hse pei mi til bout 12.30 den go work le..ytd nite bibi slp agn without sayin bye.. so angri..den sen 1msg scold her.. den another msg sae dun blame her ler..lol..cus noe she tired..dot dot dot.. den todae mornin she msg to giv reasons.lol. was sho tied..ytd 4am den slp..todae woke up ed 10.. evening go fetch her go hm.. she cease work ed 6.. hapi to c her.. on da wae bek her hm.. she kept on giving mi stupit face..stil tiao mi.. sho bad de.. but is plae plae de la..den nite stil col mi go eat shit haa..wen rch her blk, ed stairscase hug hug.. 3~~*1s1p1s..my code..i noe cn ler..haha..hope 2mr her sis go out..den cn go her hse.. got her ard was owas e most wonderful moment le..haa.. mish u both.. bibi& monmon..lol..yong bu fen li...dots..

my mood swingS..

2006-05-22T10:22:00.000-07:00

todae mornin mon cum my hse pei mi.. den bout 11 plus col bibi cht..she todae work ed 1.. she was tokin bout her past e running life.. tins becum sour wen she said running was her 1st priority.. hais.. admit tt im xiao qi.. den mayb i said sumtin tt she dun lyk or wadeva den she jus say WADEVA.. tt was wen i cried.. she nvr tok to mi lyk tis b4 de.. totalli didnt lyk tt kinda attitude frm sum1 i love.. beri wad de lor.. dots.. den afta tt she jus msg once den e 2nd msg was lyk 2hrs later.. simply meant tt i sad fer 2 hrs lor.. aniwae,mi evridae dun fail to be sad de..duno y.. den afta tt i go work at bishan e pasta_m.. oni knew amaida,e manager..den so men lor..nobodi pei mi tok.. den kip on do work.. e most jia lat tin was e closing.. tired til i siao ler.todae mondae so mus change e condiment..salt,pepper so on..den e pepper n e stupit chilli made mi cry.. so hot lor..den i kept on sneezin lyk siaos lyk tt..den heng gt another guy sweep n mop da floor,if not i faint ler..i prefer bugis bahs..more frens n not so tired.. den afta tt 3 person..wah tua pai leh.. bibi..edwin n monmon..mon duno she cumin fetch mi,so he oso cum.aniwae hou lai mon alight ed yishun go hm ler..stil rch hm earlier den mi ehs..den edwin wait fer bibi ed mrt dere..den s usual,she sen mi go upstairs lor..den 3~~*sum ish plae plae de.. she blow air..lol. den hou lai go hm ler lor.. she bu de each other..hais.. 2mr duno cn c her ma..hope cn..haa..

i tot e sky turned grey ler..hais

2006-05-21T10:22:00.000-07:00

todae mornin mon cum my hse pei mi..sho hapi to c him.. 2daes nvr c him ler..lol. den ahmor came afta tt cus wana do sch project. we went to np buy e cheap lipstick cum hm for meltin it in da little container.ah mor sae i stole her foundation.siaos!! i wonder if she was my best fren? could actuali suspect mi..omg.duno wad to sae.. pathetic lor.. haiya anitin la..she sae ler hapi cn ler.. den i make up al tt ler,mon sen mi go work.. on da wae to bugis.ah mor called agn.. now she suspect mi steal her nose stick.. make mi totalli no mood ler.. nonsense lor.. wen rch dere heng bibi stil havin her lunch.. cn tghr eat awhile den afta tt go dwn ``. edwin oso gt go dwn wit us..dots.. den work tt tym..pathetic de no mood cus felt lyk being neglected by sum1.. but tin she oso duno bahs..aniwae to her..workin tym is workin tym.. hais. she todae lyk quite hapi.cus gt soon eng ard bahs.. dot dot Dot.. fta work edwin wait fer her ed amk den she sen mi hm..evritym tis tym den cn reali be close.. hais.. oso bo bian.. den she sen mi up tt tym..we hug hug.. tis tym longer,cus nv waste too much tym.. den oso 2~~* for quite a moment.. mish her sho much..scared 2mr cant c her..cus gona go bishan fer attachment..sians.work frm 5-11.. the...HAIS~

a sudden change of mood..sad 2 hapi..

2006-05-20T10:24:00.000-07:00

todae work at 6.. aftann brin wor li,my sis go ah ma hse. actuali wanted to go tok to ah ma..fer awhile b4 go work de.. so long nv c her ler..miss her sho much..but she came back late.mi stil haf to go work..so nv had e chance to c her le..hais sians..afta tt take bus n mrt to bugis ler.. rch dere tt tym..bibi cant go downstairs pei mi awhile.. tt was wen i 1st started my bad mood.. hais.. den afta awhile manuel,e manager wanted go down tek a breath den mi n bibi go down wit him..cus he ard,so we cant be too qing mi..sians 1/2 ler.. start work tt tym oso no mood.. den nv tok much ler.. work til 11.. nv get to tok wt bibi often made my dae worse.. afta work walk wt yana go mrt stn.. she was another manager.. den oso cant let her noe bout us std.. den oso cant do anitin..bi kept tokin to her.. den i jus haf to stand aside..oredi totalli no mood ler..wasnt at al hapi.. den at city hall,finally part wt yana ler.. den we slowli cn hold hand al those ler.. but still so so moody.. tried to smile..but was so fake.. jus a facial expression er yi.. den in mrt we hug.. mood got bit beta le.. actuali bibi had to drop ed amk de.. cus lata if sen mi go scared no mrt le.. but she c mi so sad den pei mi go hm ler.. cus i told her todae not even a okok dae.. though wanted sho much tt she can sen mi hm.. but i rather she drop ed amk.. cn rch hm earlier..no nid sho ma fan.. bi jing,i ownself unhapi cn ler.. evrtin was my problem ma.. but she insist on sendin mi hm.. sho hapi.. den afta tt was hapi ler.. she oso cn c.. i sae sen mi hm wil hai le ta.. but she sae ish xin gan qing yuan de.. so touched..den she sen mi upstairs.. outside de lift,we hug.. she bu de each other.. den ~~* fer a moment.mor den average.. den hug agn.. rch hm le col her.. she told mi jus now e las hug tt tym she almost cried.. cus gona leave each other le.. prove tt she love mi..lol.aniwae.heng todae hapi agn..if not go hm cfm sad til cry de..cus cant tolerate e sadness le.. for 5 hrs so unhapi.. thnks dear.. fer puttin a smile on my face agn.. i love u.. todae monmon stil at chalet.. so nv get to c him..tmr den cn c him ler..den he todae want go redhouse wt frens. sho wu liao. siao de.. nth to do.. go boliao de place.. hope nth wil hapen to him... miss him sho much too..mwarks baobeii..

8hrs of happiness..

2006-05-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

ke lian de bibi must dry him up.. sho hairy de august..
august big front view..wahhaa.
august afta bath.. wet wet de.. blowing him dry.. sho ma fan.lol
we both taking pic of each other..hee.
taking our lunch de shi hou..
duno hw to reli explain e happiness i had todae but. it was lyk fantastic lor.. mornin 11.20 rch bibi hse.. c her do al da hse work til bout 1.. omg.. wasted..lol.afta tt we went to e katong ktv le lor.. 3hrs nia..b4 go in gt go eat 1st.. eat roast duck rice.quite nice de.. yummie.. in ktv,e room was so dark.. so lang man..lol. den we sang lots of song.. den we actuali 4~~*.1h,3ot.quite long bahs..aiya.. sort of confidential.. lets not go into detail haa.. den we hug hug oso.. suang lor..afta tt go cineleisure cus bibi wana go bk disturb aL. den go lor.. in front of her.. she dun dare let mi feed.sians ji pua liao.. den bi c liao ask mi got wad to sae ma? den i told her lor.. den afta tt she let mi feed.. wahaa.. den afta tt nid to go hm le lor.. her mum owas lyk tt.. sians.. den she drop ed amk lor. aniwae lyk tt oso late le.. heng nth hapen..2mr gona work 6-11. but gona go wit bibi.. wana c her earlier.. hee.. so mit her bout 2 bahs if not wrong.. hope evridae lyk todae sho hapi.. heaven.. lol.. aniwae monmon todae mornin gt cum find mi awhile.. at least he wu xim.. den todae he go fren bd chalet..since he tis mth so guai,den let him go le lor.. hope he was hapi too.. hee

our 1st~~*

2006-05-18T07:43:00.000-07:00

todae woke up de 6..so earli den did my tins til 7 plus den go bibi hse..walaos. todae sho hapi lor. we had a gd ~~*. lol. hugs each other tite tite.. hug her tt tym was so shiok lor.. feel lyk she my previous life lover lyk tt haha. cus noe each other for 1 mth plus nia,cn hug til lyk erms.. unexplainable.. lol. haiya.. unliaokaidable.. den afta tt she sen mi go sch. todae learn bout lip de.. wa laos. reli mor n mor diff le.. i duno hw lorr..hais.. mek til ar mor lips lyk eat chilli grow up lyk tt.. lol. wa.. i reli duno hw le..cham liao la.. den afta sch go find bibi.. eat at past_m fer a period of tym.. den go``. afta tt sit dere fer 2 hrs lyk tat bahs.if im not wrong. afta tt kit n cor yi cum eat pasta _m.. put my name gt 30% discount.. dots.. den afta tt go bugis street walk walk.. no clothes to buy sianss.. leg chao pain ful.. cus mi fei le.. e frsh friction mek mi wana do crab walk..omg.. cant walk faster..super slow..laos..dots lei..den 8 go find bibi n edwin go hm 2gthr.. she alight de amk cus late le.. but nvm.. aniwae 2mr can c her so long.. suang lor.. but sacrify my photo taking de bao gui chance.. but my baobeii ish more impt lor.. lol. hapi dae.. miss both my baobeiis.. muacks to u al..

finalli i could smile..

2006-05-17T07:11:00.000-07:00

frm e bottom plain de to the above decorated de..my zhuo ping,haha,nice hor?
alina..todae my partner.. hlp mi do eyes de..she not bad ehs..
who drew mi?? haas
mi got double eyelids ehs.. cool.
he welcome mi lei..lol..tot he wun recognise mie..
bibi de dog..''august''.sho cute de.. but sumtyms quite fierce.haa

todae mit bibi in da mornin.. bout 8 plus rch hougang.den buy duck rice go her hse mum mum..haa. sae wan to haf breakfast ish excuse hee.. ish wana c her more..mi oso nv eat much.. eat da duck nia..haa. den afta tt go her rm tang tang.. she lie beside mie.. e feelin was greaT..den last min bout 9.10 we *** .. so fast. haa.she ask mi y.. told her i tot she sae i was late ler.. ask mi faster go out of hse..haa.. didnt noe she wanted more..funi.. afta tt she sen mi go sch..todae learn to decorate e eyelashers..n learn to put eye tape n use liquid liner..dae was not bad. afta sch go find monmon awhile den go bugis find bibi ``..den afta tt go hm ler.. s usual..watch tv al tt.. cht wit abi awhile.. cht bout jus now de tin.. ask her y so wen rou.. i nt used to it hee.. wil 2mr be diff ne?haha.. 2mr gona go her hse in da mornin oso.. hapi dae.. hug her slp..shuang dao feng ler.. dot dot dot..haa...

love ur accompani..

2006-05-16T05:00:00.000-07:00

ytd nite slp at 2 plus .. earlier den last few daes..den todae slp til 1plus.. haa.duno y slp sho long stil so tired.. todae monmon pei mi whole dae..cus he off. heng got his acc.. cus todae nv get to c abi so beri sad..jus now stil cry le.. monmon lend mi his shoulder.. so nice of him.. if todae he nv cum pei mi whole dae,it wil be a beri beri sad dae.. n wun jus sad for a moment oni le.. is no mood fer 1 whole dae.. monmon cut short hair le..haa.though not sho nice.but stil ok.. look more neat..mayb tt wil prevent his pimples on da head to pop out more..hahaa..mish bibi so much..mum dun let mi go out.. if not cfm go find her de. too bad.. 2mr tink wil get to c her in da mornin b4 sch.. sho happi.. hope gt monmon ard she stil dare hold my hand n hug hug..lol.. monmon gona go army soon le.. so sad.. lyk nv b4.. den mi n bibi gona xiang yi wei ming le.. haa.. cus her edwin oso goin army.. mi wil wait fer monmon 2 yrs de. our love ish 4eva de..i love u 4eva.. muacks..

wish u're hapi evri single dae.

2006-05-15T07:38:00.000-07:00

tis pic ish tis yr tek de. a few mths bek..wen workin ed bugis push cart tt tym..michelle transfer mi da foto de. she so wu xim,stil kip my pic in her hp... haha.she sae she wun 4gt mi de. cus she oni noe 1 ''zi lian kuang'' haha..
ytd cht wt my dardar til 5.. actuali ish wan let her slp earli de.. but our conversation crop up.. ytd she tok bout e past. mie was so sad.. cus felt tt she cant 4gt..hais. i cried le.. didnt noe hw she noe. actuali nv wanted to let her noe de.. mi sad ish enuf le.. dun wana mek her sad de..but wen she knew i cry,she oso becum sad ler. she sae she xin hen tong.. xin hen fan.. den ytd she go cut her wrist agn ler. hais.. last tym cut once,ish becus of her mum de.. but i nv knew she wil do tt cus of mi.. so nei jiu.. xin shui le.. dun wana c her hurt herslf.. hais. den she sae my cry made her realise hw much she love mi n realise tt she cn 4gt bout her past le..i duno if she reali could.but reali hope so.. i once told her..i wun gib her ani chance to be sad de n i reali meant it. told her she wil once agn becum a hapi person de. i promise u dear.. reali ai ni sho much..oso wun eva let u go. " jin bao ni zai wo huai li..yong yuan dou bu fang kai"..den todae tot gt work de.but yuan lai ish dun hav..dardar c e shedule wrongli.. actuali tot ish work frm 6 til 11 de.. but i sen her to work at 12.. cus mish her sho much..saw her wrist tt tym.. zhen de hen xin suan.. hug her.. afta tt go cht wit michelle,my ex collegue for awhile den go find monmon ed plaza sing,haf lunch wit him..e food dere sucks..omg. bo bians..den afta tt go kit hse sing song n do make up project..e foundation thingy..to occupy my tym.cus wana go find bibi wen she cease work.. todae edwin bd.. but nv buy him present.. dot dot.. in mrt oso kip on huggin her.. cus is da most wonderful moment..lol. den same tin lor.. she sen mi hm den go hm le.. ltr wil wait fer her mum slp den cn cht wit her.. haha..lets hope she wun fall aslp..dotz..

todae ish sad dae.sky turned grey le.

2006-05-14T07:01:00.000-07:00

ugly old hock.. haha

ytd nite cht wit my baobeii til 5.15am. wa.. broke my last record le. tt tym cht wit ex is 4 plus oni.. we didnt noe it was so late. tot it was jus 3 plus. haa. funi. we were shocked to noe tt it was oredi so late.but she kept on laughing.. cute de.. den todae no work.. cant c her. tts y it was a sad dae.. cant get to cht much cus afta her work at 6,she go hm cant use fone le.. den its lyk evrinite i mus wait fer her col til 12-1 plus.. sho tired,but bo bian.cus love her sho much.. nv hear her voice cant slp le.. dots.. den is lyk super no mood lor wen cant c her e whole dae.. heng 2mr cn c her le cus workin ed 6pm to 11. she work 12 to 8pm. but wil work ot n wait fer mi.. hais,if not i go oso no use de.. work not becus of wadeva but ish to c her more often..hais. den she todae tel mi fridae she cant stay out whole dae,mus reach hm be4 her mum go hm..sians.. tot cn pei her whole dae de.. hais..reali miss her.. but at least monmon at nite cum my hse pei mi 2 hrs..cus tel him i was so sad.. wan cry le.. hais..he pei mi til 11 den i must wait 2hrs more den cn hear her voice.. curse e tym tt went so slowly wen im not wit her..n yet ran so fast we im wit her..haissssss....mornin went to plae badmiton at hse downstais de kpt dere. dad woke mi up s earli s 8. tt means slept fer 3 hrs oni..abi oso.. lol. den wen hm bathe le den slp fer 5 hrs.. ke lian de abi mus work..no tym slp.. wen wake up go eat at sembawang shoppin centre.. the thai restaurant. e food was owas sho nice..yum yumm..baobeii,nxt tym brin u go eat kie. hee.. jus now ssc dere held a most beautiful grandma contest.haha.but all not pretty de.. haha..dear.i wan hug eu.. 4eva.. or mek e tym stop ed the most precious moment..

so hapi. cus i cc euu

2006-05-13T08:10:00.000-07:00

todae woke up at 10 cus monmon cum my hse le..den he tok to mi til i cant slp haa. ytd nite cus of tt prob bout 4 den slp. but mind stil quite awake.aniwae..now evritn okie le once saw my darlin. haa. bout 2 plus i did my make up al tt den 4 plus took mrt go bugis find bibi.. wait fer her to cease work.. wana c her evri single dae..den in mrt,we hug frm dobhy ghaut til khatib. so suang lor. so wen nuan.lyk her smell. hug her frm 1 end to another end of sg 100tyms oso bu sians. haa. den hungri le. she brin mi go 800+ mum mum.. eat chicken cutlet rice. so delicious.. den afta tt she sen mi hm ler..hp low batt so no1 cn col.. hais. mus go bek charge le..den she sen mi up da lift tt tym oso got hug. but nv mwarks. cus scared lyk ytd lyk tt. but mayb at ktv tt tym wil try wit her. haa.cus ish er ren shi jie ma.. lol.den at my staircase dere.ask her gib mi gdbye kiss. haha. tt one was normal..hee. but wish cn kish longer.. wen rch hm,even though watching tv,ppl talkin to mi,but i was jus concentrating on missin her.. jus she..jus cant get her out of my mind.. omg. dotss. ai yi ge ren jiu shi zhe yang.. den afta tt col my monmon.. feel tt recently lyk nv pay attention to him.. so sorri mon. jus noe tt dere's always a place fer u in my hart.. i love u too..

all muh fault

2006-05-12T19:42:00.000-07:00

made by chili pwder n green peas plus cheese powder by customer of pasta mania.saw it while clearing e dishes. haha.
ytd woke up at bout 12.cus duno it was so late le.todae got work at pasta den i mit abi dardar ed 1.30 lyk tt at amk last cabin. den rch bugis at 2.20 lyk tt. den we go bk outside fer a pff.den afta tt actuali want treat her eat ice cream de. but she tel mi stomach pain. duno true or not. or dun wan mi waste money. hais. waste money on her is xing gan qing yuan de lor.. cus seriousli loved her alot alot..cn feel lyk i wana b wit her 4eva lyk tt,even shes a gal.. working tt tym even though tired,but was hapi,cus shes around,duo tired oso zhi de. reali so so tiring lor. now i understd y she evridae so sians.. mus walk up n down clean table,clear dishes,serve food. walk 5 hrs non stop except for e 10mins eating brk. den i 9 finish work. wen down wt abi haf a pff.den sit on da floor.lie on her shoulder.so en ai. haa. den waited fer her to cease work at 11. but hou lai sumtin crop up,11..30 den cn go.. she sen mi hm..edwin oso dere.. lyk so ma fan edwin,but he wun let abi go hm alone de.. den she sen mi go up e lift tt tym ask edwin wait downstairs. we press 12 floor. haa. cus wana hug each other longer. but sumtin wen wrong.. i feel lyk veri bu zhi ran.. i kish her lips two tyms.. den i lyk scared scared lyk tt.. she oso ask mi y.. i oso duno y lor.. mayb ish firsh tym.. .. but i reali dun lyk lor.. owas tot i wil dare de.. especialli to kish sum1 i love sho much. owas waitin fer e dae to cum.yet e dae cum liao. nv did a gd job lyk tt. feel lyk wana bang e wall. cus duno wad to do.. hai shi bu ming bai.. sae oso cant sae clearly.. wad hapen?? hais..den she ask mi (dun tin sho much).. i hate tt phrase.. especialli if my std tell mi tt.. cus wad 4 i tin so much if dere isnt a nid? ryte? reali feel bad.. wana haf a 2nd try. duno wen.. hope tt i cn do beta den tt. sobs. todae 13/05 ish mie n her de 1 mth. sho hapi. but not enuf.. hope cn stay 4eva.. even though cant marry. lol. mi ish lyk tt de.. i wil tin nonsense. but hope cn cum true.. aiya duno la. oso not mie decide de.. i ish cfm maintain relationship de,but is e other part who decide e period of tym.. hais.. bibi. i love euu so much.. dun wana us be apart.. mwarkss..not forgettin monmon oso..luv ya too.

make up course de 2nd lesson.haa

2006-05-11T09:01:00.000-07:00

the stupit global matrix which i wen for trng jus behind e trees. waste my precious tym..actuali cn pei bibi de..hais..
fountation & shader application on miss monkey kit..lol
our make up essentails.not jus tis..haa
todae in sch learn face & nose shading wit powder de fountation n shader..did quite well.except for e face part..not as gd..todae 4 plus dismiss den mit abi ed ochard tower cus kit go mend her boots.so surprise..infront of ppl,she dare hold my hand le haa..we go bk eat..wan buy ice cream cake gib her she dun wan.hais.lyk evritym she treat.. nvm.. nex tym wil get to treat u de bibi.lol.afta tt she send mi to pasta_m trng..sians. c her fer 2 hrs plus nia..but veri gd le. at least sumtin..** got improvement. lol.late fer trng le. but nvm.. worth it de. haa.she todae so gd lor. if evridae she lyk tt cfm best.. haa. cus sumtym she sian sian no mood. den i oso no mood le. todae found out tt she get to understand mi more le..noe wad im tinkin of..haha..mish her evri secs tt she's nt wit mie.. afta trng,waited fer half hr for mon to cum fetch mie.cus trng ended so earli.. den we go opp de cpt eat. i eat roasted duck rice.mon eat chicken cutlet rice.. so full. quite nice. but on e wae hm wan vomit. dot dot.. den go hm le reali vomit all e rice out..maybe too much thng in stomach ler.. haa.now feel beta liaos le..waiting fer bibi to call mi. actuali sho tired le.. but nv hear her voice .. den shui bu sia.. hees.

mek up course de 1st lesson..

2006-05-10T03:57:00.000-07:00

end of lesson le..
preparing to clear up classrm le..
pics done by previous make -up arist
todae woke up ed 7.30 lyk tt.monmon cum my hse at 8+. so tired.do all my tins le den mit kit at khatib. gt a small surprise.tot todae cant get to c muh bibi de.but i did saw her. she waited 2 trains to pass cus wan wait for mi to tek same train ash her.. so hapi..den go delfi orchard shang ke le..todae learn foundation application n nose shading,to mek it look nicer,sharper..learn 5 hrs minus away 1 hr brk tym..4 hrs nia. sho ex lor..actuali ish 7 hrs de. dot dot..todae do two models..both malay de.hais..afta class go find abi ed pm. cus mish her sho sho much lor.. but mit awhile oni.heng at 3+ she quite free.n gang haoshe wan go downstairs buy tin. den we go downstairs awhile lo.. nobodi c.. so she zi dong hold muh hand.haha.evrtym hold her hand..sho comfortable.so hapi de..den afta tt go hm le.. hais sians..

todae go global matrix..trainin..

2006-05-09T09:01:00.000-07:00

stupit de rainin dae.. mon rush bek shoe shop hlp mi get my uniform tt we 4gt to tek..hais..heng cn rmbr..

mon eatin bbq chicken pizza. sho delicious de..mum mum..
dardar eatin i kip on tek foto.. hope she wun angri.lol.
ugly de mie..no form todae.lol
monmon havin e spicy chicken pasta..
ed bugis street shoppin de shi hou..
at mac..

todae go bukit merah.global matrix dere fer pasta mania de trainin,mornin ish go tek e tyhoid jab n take e uniform..tot inject wil b pain,but it wasnt..lol.mon pei mi go de. den aftnn go pasta mania eat.todae ate e same spicy chicken pasta but pizza was diff.we ate e bbq chicken pizza.it was nicer den e hawaiin de.more tasty.shiok..eat le go buy shoe,cus e trainin sho ma fan. cant wear slipper,stil mus wear full uniform.hais.buy le go pei my darlin eat.she ate beri spicy de pasta..lol.den afta tt go downstairs haf a puff.dn go mac eat fries cus haven rch e tym yet.outside e mac,saw two er xin e les couple.one of e couple was lyk,lc n hug..touch evriwhr in e public.wa lao.another couple nt tt bad.kiss nia. at hm do tis kinda tin stil cn lor.but ish public leh lao..siao de.afta tt took bus go trainin agn ler.mon waited 3hrs downstairs for mi. so ke lian.but i appreciate his effort.got a bad headache.duno y.. hais. afta trainin go mit abi at outram mrt.in mrt. was s usual.waitin fer her to hold my hand.aniwae my bf ish dun mind de. but she pai seh.dun dare hold infront of monmon.den goin rch khatib ler den hold.she sae beta den nth. lol. kai wan xiao de..den rch khatib le. mi stil zi dong ask her hug hug. but she hug lyk 2 sec den sae ok ler. cus pai seh. haiyo.. bu shuang de..bt nvm. hope nxt tym she wil be more daring..haha..den she u-turn go bek amk tek bus hm ler.2mr cant c her sians. but 2mr gt mek up class.mus wake up earlier le..now gona slp le.bubbye.~

pei abi c doc

2006-05-08T02:17:00.000-07:00

in bus to mit her..

mornin was usual.mon cum pei mi.dn he 1plus dn go work le. afta tt mie tot todae wil b a borinn de mondae.but it wasnt so.lol. bibi injured her leg ytd,she trip n fall,sprained her ankle.so sad. den todae she wan go c doc tt tym she sae she scared go alone.haa. dn i go find her,acc her go c chi de doc at sgn.actuali she tot e doc wil crack her ankle de,but wasnt so serious,mayb cus wen e doc ask her pain anot,she sae no.haiyo.she reali hor.. by ryte suld tel e doc e truth so tt dey cn noe if its serious or not de.haiyo.den doc gave her med n plaster.got 2 daes mc,but she stil wan to go work at 6. a 100% WORKAHOLIC.afta tt go cpt eat cai tao kuei.we share share.haa.eat le den she sen mi go hm. at void deck sit a while,pei yang gan qing haa. den 5 she sen mi up e lift den go work le.she hug mi.. n mwark muh cheek. haa.finali so zi dong. i oso mwark her cheek. hee.nice dae..smiles.

go mit abi'go kit hse

2006-05-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

bibi dun wan let mi tek foto.dot dot..

todae quarrel wit monmon.bout nonsense.den i threw my ring out of da window lol.den let him waste his precious tym go find it bek. he cock eye,find 3 tyms stil cant find. suld be guy go find den cum mek his std touch de,but in e end is i found it de,usin both my eye plus my brain.hais.den he stil tot i kip e ring den kei siao act lyk gt throw. siao de. den i tulan,go throw at e grass patch let him find agn.-_-'' den find duno hw ong stil cant find. hais. stupit pig.gave him sho much clue le,stil gota tel him e exact place. hais. not sincere ed al de. dot. afta he go work le. i go mit bibi ed np,she treat mi eat fries n lemon tea ed burger king.den i sent her to work.e 1st tym lol.hais,cant c her more. reali sad. hais.hope 21/06 cn go ktv wit her. so cn haf her acc fer e whole dae. hee. den afta her work i go kit hse sing song.haha. her ah ma kip on shout,sis kip on cry. sho irritating.hais. den wen gona go hm tt tym,her da shao stil wan us to curl hair fer her. haiyo. wasted tym. den kit stil go kfc eat. so late le. told my mum wan 7+ go hm,dn 9+ den rch hm. she sae mi oso.dot dot.miss my dardarss sho much. wan hug dem.mmm

wen to work ed np

2006-05-06T09:24:00.000-07:00

06/o5,todae mi go work wt kit.ed dermal floral.cus dey cum north point ma. work fer bout 4 hrs.earn 40bucks.means 1hr 10bucks lol.so gd.but stil not enuf lei,but nvm la.gt money in muh wallet hapi ler haha.den afta tt go bugis find my dardar.hapi to c her..she treat mi & kit eat pasta n pizza,hawain pizza,spicy chicken pasta,e pic dere. actuali dun lyk eat pasta de but tis tym de was quite nice.eat til ful,cant go shoppin ler.haa. den afta tt go shop ed bugis street a few hrs den go parco awhile wei le wan buy tin fer my dardar.but ended up gettin sumtin frm e pushcart instead.bot ke^ai de swt fer her. hope she wil lyk it. she sae she lyk to eat ice cream but cant possinly buy ice cream fer her while she's workin ma.so decided to buy sumtin swt fer her lor. lol.den afta tt go upstairs gib her. so qiao,its wen i jus received her msg,she ask mi go hm le ma. lol.den jus appeared b4 her.tin gt surprise her bahs.hee.den go downstairs fer awile oni dn she nid to go bek work le. hais. owas so busy...cant gt to c her fer long tym.sians.wen goin hm tt tym ask her let mi touch her hand,haa.cus feel uncomfortable wen mit her without touchin her hand at al,its lyk nvr mit..lol.den go hm ler gt col her up.love her sho much. oso mish my monmon alot..mwarks monmon.i love u too. wun miss out u de..

my interview ed pasta mania was LOL

2006-05-05T09:33:00.000-07:00

outside pasta mania. whr's abi ne? lol
me & binko
opp bugis village oni.lotsa ppl shoppin.
took e foto ed e bridge near e edge
was quite a number of ppl ed tt tym
ytd nyte dreamt alot. dreamt of yaoming.pri scoo de sum1..lol.adventurous dream.todae earli in e mornin.e elephant step into my room woke mi up ler. -_-'' hais.evritym de. cant let mi slpniceli fer one whole mornin.todae actuali nvr go out de. but realli damn bored lor. n so mish abi leh.wana c her sho much. so go interview for pasta mania to c her lor. lol.interview was sucessful cus abi intro de.haa.sho happi.cn work wit my baobeii ler.little pay oso nv mind. s long s cn c her more. hee.love her sho much..nex week go fer e trainin class,tek uniform n tek jab. laos. dots dots. pain de..den jus now afta interview shun bain go bugis village zhou zhou..look ed al e nice nice clothes. admire dem haa. cus no money le. cant buy. mus wait til nxt mth monmon gib.lol ..den go parco wok wok oso. so sians. window shoppin nia.hais. but den at least nv waste e trip.cus cn c my abi mar.binko pei mi go de. so nice..

1st dae of make up course ~

2006-05-04T23:02:00.000-07:00

ytd was my first dae of mek up course. but woke plus an hr plus late cus no1 wake mi up.sho angri hais.den must do tins sho fast til pek cek..cant curl my hair.mek up oso nt nice.afta tt monmon n kit went to scoo ed delfi orchard wit mi.mon leave fer work soon afta tt.tot it was 7hrs but end up oni 3hrs.cus orientation oni.but i got all my mek up stuffs tt cost bout 1k plus ler sho happi. oni tin tt haven gt was e eye shadow n blusher.e nxt tym go get frm dem.haa.peter angel was a funni teacher. cn easily catch our attention.lolafta e orientation go shoppin wt kit.den walk til leg tired. wait fer abi to cum mit mi. dn she reach ed 5 plus wit edwin n jovern. we went to burger king have a drink n ate sum fries n cheesestick.sho nice.dn took cab hm. kit goin my hse to trim eyebrow.dn abi n edwin came cus dey sen mi hm.haa.sho nice of dem.den edwin sen abi hm le..ova-al todae was a nice dae.in e cab,mi wanted it to b a longer journey though gt car sick but e feelin of sittin side by side wit my dar abi mek mi dun feel lyk getting out of da cab.hee.wanted to hold her hand but dun dare.hee. shy ma. but she oso bu zi tong. owas lyk tt de. hais but nvm. cfm gt tt one fine dae de.lol

boringg dae ~

2006-05-04T22:19:00.000-07:00

02/05. mie woke up ed bout 9+ cus monmon jump on my bed disturb mi..den i force muhsef go slp agn..hee. slp til 10 den wek up eat porridge..den i try to mek my blog. but no improvement..sians..den 1+. abi dar cum pei mi awhile..den 2+ den go work le. sians.boringg dae.but e tot of 2mr mek up course brighten my moment..haha. so hapi.. but mus wek up earli 2mr.. hais.. but at least gona mit abi afta dismisal..

go pay scoo fees..

2006-05-04T22:15:00.000-07:00

01/05. todae woke up earli in da mornin bout 8.30.cus gona go pay muh make-up de sch fee ed delfi orchard wt my mum.cus she wana noe mor bout e course.mus wake up 1-2hrs earli cus.'i m slowpoke'.. haa.afta go e sch den my mu go artha place le. so i must go bek yishun muhsef. hais. aniwae nt tt cham cus gona mit my monmon le. he came ctrl stn fetch mie.hee. dn we go hm mek blog 2gtr.mek 4 2 daes le stil canot mek it. hais.pek cek lo. -_-'' til nite dn cn. cus its miracle haa. do evritin oso cant but once i insert mi n abi foto dn cn le. non-sense~haa. but sho hapi.now stil no backgrd sians. 2mr wil b beta bahs lol.''pian zi ji''

stupit dae..lol

2006-05-04T22:11:00.000-07:00

29/04.todae mi woke up bout 10. my dad disturb mi de. hais . cus wan go eat. sians. not enuf slp cus ytd nyte stupit tins hapen. abi mum col n scold mie fer callin her up so late. she was so rude. so i did not tok politely 2 her. b4 she chup da fone. she ask mi eat shit n die. -_-''. so shen jing. but kinda funni oso. afta tt msg n quarel. sians. so tired le stil mus entertain deir msges. dn tosae actuali ish go my granny hse de. go dere eat. usualli i wil tek at least 1hr to make up n do my tins de. but my mum wait til bu nai fan, den leave mi at hm n go wit my dad n sis ler. so angri. hmph!!den make up le,reborn hair le. bo bian. den wen 2 haf breakfast wt my mei,binko. wen to 848 dere eat mac. den i bot sumtin fer abi . my dardar. ish little chicken in its nest. so ke ai..hope she wil lyk it. mish her so much. 2 daes nv c her ler.weather was damn hot. hav to walk bek hm perpiring lyk siao.no choice. den bout 4 plus to 5 went to mit my parent at toa payoh ctrl stn. goin fer diner. my uncle treat de. cus gt e government gib de money ma. lol.eat lotsa food. so nice.spent bout 170 bucks.dn took a cab hm ler.

mi & abi 2 weeks ler !!

2006-05-04T22:08:00.000-07:00

27/04.todae woke up bout early. erm. b4 10am bahs. mon(my std-lawrence) came to my hse earli 2 pei mi cus after tt he wil go to work le. at ps. we ate chicken porrigde tt my maid cooked. immediateli afta tt go downstairs eat roto prata. haha. cus porridge not too nice. den ate 2 pieces of roti prata. haha. so ful. den afta tt go upstairs bathe n make up cus gona mit abby dardar at bout 12.30. mi ask her cum earlier so wil haf more tym fer us to b 2gthr. but in e end was late wen mit her cus took my own swt tym. lol. she hab 2 wait downstairs cus mama dun lyk her to cum upstairs. hais. cus late ler, so mi make up ler, cant straighten all my hair, haf to bun up the back part n oni straighten e front fringe.aniwae. at least luk not bad. haa. busy til whole body perspiring. yucks. somemore 4gt tek my tins,mus walk al e wae up to get it agn. hais. den mit ler abby,wen to her hse cus wana c her 3 yr old dog(august). took a bus to sgn ,near hougang. she bot potato chip fer mi. so nice of her. her dog was so fierce at 1st. bark til so loud,attempt to bite mi. keke. but afta tat ok ler. nth much to do . so use msn awhile. make a fool wit ppl. c abby's blog. wao. so mani pages. c til eye tired. but cus wana noe mor bout her past bahs. kpokpo abit.. haa.she ask mi not to read but mi stil continue. she haf lotsa sad story. sum c ler almost cry. -_-'' den watch abit of tv. nth much actuali. den most of e tym stay in her rm.. got fan. so mek mi wana slp ler. haha. lie down dere tt tym. sumtin surprised mi. -ab held muh hand fer e 1st tym. - but both of us act normal.so swt. * b4 her mum came hm, we wen out eat. at sgn garden. e char guei tiao chao nice de. it's her trit. lol. gd hor. col e person cook .add spicy. cook black black. dun put vege n er xin de hum. haa. so hapi.. afta tt wen to a pet shop to c dog. so cute de. but too bad. my parent dun allow mi to yang pets de.wen bek hm bout 6+. rch hm bout 7.30,at least get to watch abit of e bao lian deng.todae was actuali nt bored. not lyk other daes. and da most impt tin was tat mi n abby actuali std fer 2 weeks ler. so fast.haa.hope cn continue alsp yea.